general helplessness that were clouding whatever judgment got her into Oxford in the first place.
As it was, she only had to chat to the physician for a few minutes before emerging with her prescription and the glow of somebody who will never, ever have unnecessary sex again. Morgan usually lasts about a week before jumping the next guy, but Iâm betting Holly waits longer.
âOK?â I ask, my ass already numb from the cheap Formica seats they have lining the small waiting area.
She nods happily. âYes. Thank god!â
âCool.â I look around. The place is empty, littered with flyers and health-awareness posters. âWant to stock up on freebies while weâre here?â
Holly blushes, but she goes over to the jar of condoms all the same. I browse the notice board instead. Thereâs no way Iâm so much as going to
kiss
a guy while Iâm over here. No dating, period.
âYes, just let me check for you.â A voice emerges from a back room, and then the familiar stocky body of my classmate walks out. I cringe.
âOh. Hi. Natasha, right?â Carrie looks as uncomfortable as me, frozen by the front desk with an armful of paperwork.
âYup. Hey.â I give an awkward wave.
âWhat brings youâ¦?â Carrie glances from me, to the physicianâs door, to where Holly is helping herself to a liberal supply of condoms. âOh, right.â She gives me a knowing look. Of course the dumb Californian would be stocking up on birth control.
I control my flicker of irritation and try and make nice. âYou work here? Thatâs great.â
Carrie looks surprised. âYes, I volunteer. But not for long. Theyâre closing the place down at the end of March.â
âThey are?â I look around again. âWhy?â
âNo funding.â Carrie gives a bitter laugh. âThe benefactors leave thousands to the rowing clubs and libraries, but we get nothing. Typical, isnât it?â She takes a paper from the desk and hands it to me. SAVE WOMENâS SERVICES , the Day-Glo orange flyer protests.
âIs there anywhere else in town to get this stuff?â I ask, worried. I may be planning to give nuns competition in the chastity stakes, but that doesnât mean I canât be concerned for everyone else.
âThatâs not the point.â Carrie folds her arms, already defensive. âThatâs only half of what we do here. Thereâs a support hotline and a night safety group andââ
âI get it,â I cut her off quickly. Sheâs got an angry gleam in her eye, and I donât want to be on the other end of it. âWell, good luck.â I put the flyer down and pick up my bag. âI hope you pull it off.â
She turns back to her paperwork, while Holly and I push through the smudged glass doors onto the street. Students stream by on bikes, long striped scarves around their necks, and a bunch of Japanese tourists hover by the gates of the college next door.
âSoâ¦â I start, turning to her kind of awkwardly. Now that sheâs OK, Holly probably has plans. âYouâre all set?â
âYes.â Holly smiles shyly. âI only have to go to the chemistâs.â
âCool, Iâll justââ
âWould you come with me?â Holly asks suddenly. âAnd then maybe, I know this great café nearby. We could get something to eat?â She looks at me hopefully. âI mean, you probably have things to do, butâ¦â
âNo! I mean, I donât. Iâm free.â I smile back, pulling my scarf tighter and thanking the god of coincidence for sending me a possible friend. âIâd like that.â
Emily
Apparently the international office doesnât subscribe to my standards of what constitutes a proper education, because by the end of the week, I find myself sitting halfway back in a cavernous lecture hall while our professor addresses us