belly paler than his mushroom-top of a Stetson.
âListen,â the Pickle Park cowboy said in a choked voice, âIâll pay you.â
In that moment Shadow made up his mind that he was never going to be one of these aging suppliants. Never. Somehow it was going to be different for him. He would not grow old.
At the same time, the scornful words that had rushed to his mind went unspoken, because he sensed something. This manâthis round-faced, sad-eyed manâhid some power that called to Shadow like the hidden lightning calling from the clouds.
âNo,â Shadow said softly.
âPlease.â
âNo, you wonât pay me.â For some ineffable reason that had nothing to do with pity or kindness, he intended to service this middle-aged closet queen. âCome on.â
Because his would-be lover seemed uncomprehending, he reached out and grabbed him by the wrist to lead him toward the shadows between the two concrete-block buildings coyly marked âPointersâ and âSetters.â But when his fingers came in contact with the manâs pulse, revelation like electric shock went through him, rooting him where he was. Somehow via his own hand he knew this manâs soul, and it was lonesome and visionary and yearning. Like his own.
Shadow whispered, âYou want to be a hero.â
The other gave a nervous smile. âYes.â His mouth was small and triangular, like a babyâs. An inappropriate mouth. Everything about his appearance was inappropriate to who he really was.
Shadow said quietly, âYou want to fight for justice. You want to leave your mother and spend your life among men someplace where you can stand tall, wear a code of honor at your hip, be adored by tenderfeet everywhere. You want to speak little, ride hard, love a stallion. You want to have courage. You want God to come to you in a sunset and touch your shoulder with his gun barrel.â
The round-faced man understood now that Shadow had not merely noticed his getup, his boots and jeans and vest and Stetson, his fantasy. He stood agawk. Shadow got moving, in a different direction this time. Cowboys do things right. âDrive,â he told the middle-aged man, shoving him toward his Buick. He got into the passenger side.
The man drove. A dozen hungry eyes watched the two of them go. âWhere?â the Stetson asked when they were out of the Pickle Park.
âYou choose. Some motel.â
âMotels are too risky.â
âI am asking you for an act of courage.â
The stranger swallowed, nodded, and turned toward Soudersburg.
âWhat is your name?â Shadow asked him after awhile.
âArgent.â
It was a dreamed-up name, of course, used only for adventures like this. Probably changed as often as Shadow changed his. Yet in a way it was more true than the manâs real name, whatever that might be. âOkay, Argent,â Shadow agreed, low-voiced. âIs this the place?â
It was. âCabins,â the wooden sign proclaimed. âKitchenettes. Color TV In Every Room. Vibra-Beds.â Argent went and rang the bell, brought down the ownerâs sleepy wife from her bedroom over the office, made the arrangements. Inside the small cold-floored room, with the door locked and the blinds drawn, Argent did not go at once to the chenille-spread bed, but looked at Shadow in the light. He took off his oversized Stetsonâanother act of courage, for the hat concealed a balding head.
âWhy are you doing this?â he asked Shadow. âYou are beautiful. Way out of my league.â
Not yet knowing the answer, Shadow went to him and kissed his babyish mouth. With half-lidded eyes Argent gasped, but so far Shadow himself felt no reactionâexcept in his hands, which lifted to Argentâs plump shoulder blades, their finger bones buzzing and tingling like Shadowâs mind. An image was growing, growing, glowing like heat lightning in the shadows