queen-size bed with the iron headboard, fluffy down pillows and handmade quilt like she did when she was a little girl. To hide herself inside the big farmhouse, with its creaky wooden floors and lingering scents of baking bread and cinnamon. But if she were going to be back in Shelby Lake for any length of time, sheâd have to return home sooner or later. Better to do it now on her own terms without an audience.
She laid her head on Grandmaâs shoulder. âIâm a big girl, Grandma. I can stay by myself.â
Grandma slid her arm behind Lindsey and gathered her close. âOh, I know. Itâs justâ¦well, going home may be a little difficult.â
Getting a loan for her inn was a little difficult. Finding a certified contractor on a Sunday was a little difficult. Going home wasâ¦well, that was beyond difficult. She had to suck it up and do it.
âThanks, but Iâll be fine hanging out here until Mom is out of surgery.â Lindsey stood and adjusted the butter-yellow cardigan she wore with her yellow-and-lavender floral skirt. Her open-toed heels were killing her feet. She longed for a hot bath and comfy pajamas.
âWhile theyâre prepping Gracie for surgery, Iâm going to see if Granddad wants to go to the chapel with me to pray. Would you care to join us?â
âNo, thanks. Iâll wait here until I can see Mom before her surgery.â
âThey gave her a pretty strong painkiller. She may sleep for a while.â
âThatâs okay. I just, well, I need to be here. In case she needs me.â
âI understand.â
Grandma gathered her yarn. Lindsey touched her shoulder. âGrandma? What ifâ¦â Lindsey hesitated, not wanting to go there, but a girl had to face reality. âWhat if something goes wrong? Like with Dad.â
Taking Lindseyâs hands into hers, Grandma squeezed them lightly. âHoney, you are not alone. Remember that. Weâre here with you. And so is God. One of my favorite verses from Psalm reminds us, âWhen I am afraid, I will trust in You.â The Lord will guide the surgeons and keep your mom safe. Put your trust in Him.â
Lindsey tugged on the cuff of her sweater. âWhere was that guidance five years ago? How can I trust a God who takes great people like Dad, yet lets his killer roam free? Praying would be a waste of time. God tuned me out years ago.â
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Stephen rested his head against the back of the vinyl chair and shifted Tyler in his lap. The kid was supposed to be lying on the bed, but comforting his son was more important than following hospital protocol.
Ty whimpered and snuggled closer, cradling his head in the crook of Stephenâs arm. âI wanna go home.â
âI know, partner. As soon as the doctor finds out whatâs wrong with your wrist, weâll be out of here.â Stephen adjusted the ice pack on Tylerâs left wrist and prayed the ibuprofen started working soon.
Ty didnât fight the nurse who took his vitals or gave himpain meds, but when Dr. Warren touched his wrist, the kid let out a scream that sliced through Stephen like a scalpel. More than anything, he wanted to fix it. Take the pain away. Make his son happy again.
His ears still rang from Tylerâs screams upon entering the emergency department. Stephen wasnât sure if he was in pain or if the hospital brought back memories. Maybe a little of both.
Ty cried every time they visited. The beeping monitors scared him. He complained about the smell. His childhood needed to be filled with baseball games, skinned knees, climbing treesânot death.
Bethanyâs face swept into his head. Her final days, lying in the bed, struggling for her next breath as the melanoma ravaged her frail body. Skin stretched across bone, she had become a shell of the woman he cared about. Her strawberry blond hair had been destroyed by chemo and radiation. Even her freckles appeared as washed-out as