breath and changed gears. âAnyway, I decided if I hired an investigator, thatâs the person Iâd give the tape to. I guess now I have to ask if youâre willing to help, because if youâre not, Iâll have to find someone else.â
I thought about it briefly. Of course I was interested. I just wasnât sure about my chances of success. âAn investigation like this is likely to be expensive. Are you prepared for that?â
âI wouldnât have come up if I wasnât.â
âAnd your husbandâs in agreement?â
âHeâs not wild about the idea, but he can see Iâm determined.â
âAll right. Let me nose around first before we sign any contracts. I want to make sure I can do you some good. Otherwise, itâs a waste of my time and your money.â
âAre you going to talk to the police?â
âIâll have to do that,â I said. âMaybe unofficially at first. The point is, I need information, and if we can get their cooperation, it will save you some bucks.â
âI understand that,â she said, âbut you have to understand one thing, too. I know you feel the police here are competent, and Iâm sure thatâs true, but everybody makesan occasional mistake, and itâs just human nature to want to cover it up. I donât want you to decide whether or not you can help on the basis of their attitude. They probably think Iâm crazy as a loon.â
âBelieve me, Iâm capable of making up my own mind about things.â I could feel a crick in my neck, and I took a look at my watch. Time to wind it up, I thought. I asked for her home address, her home phone, and the number at the coffee shop, making notes on my legal pad. âLet me see what I can find out,â I said. âIn the meantime, can you leave that with me? Iâd like to get myself up to speed. The meter wonât actually start ticking until we have a signed contract.â
She glanced down at the paper sack beside her but made no move to lift it. âI guess so. I suppose. I wouldnât want anybody else to get their hands on the tape. Itâd kill Mace and the girls if they knew what was in here.â
I crossed my heart and held my hand up. âIâll guard it with my life,â I said. I didnât think there was any point in reminding her that pornography is a commercial venture. There were probably thousands of copies of the tape in circulation. I tucked the notes in my briefcase and snapped the lid down. She stood up when I did, hefting the bag to one hip before she passed it over to me.
âThanks,â I said. I picked up my jacket and my handbag, setting them on top of the bag, juggling the armload of items as I turned off lights. She followed me across the hall and watched me uneasily as I locked up. I glanced back at her. âYouâre going to have to trust me, you know. Without that, thereâs no point doing business together.â
She nodded, and I caught a glimpse of tears in her eyes.âI hope you remember Lorna really wasnât like what you see.â
âIâll remember,â I said. âIâll get back to you as soon as I know anything, and weâll work out a game plan.â
âAll right.â
âOne more thing. Youâre going to have to tell Mace about the tape. He doesnât have to see it, but he should know it exists. I want complete honesty among the three of us.â
âAll right. Anyway, Iâve never been good at keeping secrets from him.â
We parted company in the little twelve-car parking lot behind the building, after which I drove home.
Once in my neighborhood, I had to circle the block before I snagged a semilegal spot half a block away. I locked my car and walked to my place, toting the paper sack like a load of groceries. The night was downy and soft. The street was darkened by trees, the bare branches woven overhead in a