yourselves.â She claps her hands a couple times. âItâs pop-poetry time so just knock one out. Donât think too much. Just jot it down. Describe a flower. Wrap it in a metaphor. Bam! You got a poem! Nothing to it. Personify your seat partnerâs nose. Boo-ya! Poem! Just free your mind and let that little sucker flow into your journal. This is going to be a daily ritual throughout the entirety of the unit, so get used to it, people.â
Forget her, Sam.
Just look straight ahead.
Pretend heâs not even there.
Focus on the Rules.
And breathe. Just breathe.
I try all that. But Iâm distracted by annoying tapping.
Itâs Luis. Heâs got his fingernails going manic on the desk.
Cassidy starts walking our way. He sees her and says it real fast. Straight ahead, like heâs talking to the whiteboard in front of class. âYou got a pencil?â
Iâm not sure I heard right. But if I did, he could only be talking to me.
âPencil. You got a pencil?â
A pencil, a pencil, a pencil ⦠I pat my coat pockets like there might be a pencil there, but itâs ridiculous because I never bring one to class. I take in a deep, slow breath. I feel like Iâm gonna faint. I look down at my feet and itâs my lucky day because thereâs an eraserless, chewed-up pencil right under the table. I pick it up and pass it to Luis.
He gives me a half grunt and nods straight ahead in thanks, I think. Then he curls over his journal and pretends to write.
The class gets to popping out poems.
For the moment, all is well.
Then straight-A geek Julisa Mendezâon her way back from chatting up Cassidyâwalks past us, stops and looks at Luis like she canât believe what she just saw.
Luis looks up from his fake-scribbling right back at her.
Andâ whoosh! âevery eye is on us.
Julisa walks up to him and pulls his pencil out of his hand. Holds it up for inspection. âSeriously, Luis? This is disgusting.â
There are snickers from the class.
Go away, Julisa!
She walks over and tosses the pencil in the trash.
Do not come back here.
Do notâ
She comes back all right, and sheâs got her bulging, orange and green, flower-covered pencil pouch with her.
The eyes all follow her every move.
My heart pounds.
I slump down in my seat as Julisa stands there digging in the ridiculous pouch. She eyes the class and says, âWhat are you all looking at?â as she pulls out a newly sharpened, perfect blue pencil and slaps it on Luisâs desk. Then she looks over at my empty hands and shakes her head.
I pop my hood on and slump harder as she thrusts her hand back into the pouch. âI donât know which is worse,â she says. And she slaps a shiny yellow one down for me. âGuys, Iâm here every day. Just ask.â
Luis doesnât say a word.
I donât say a word.
We just stare straight ahead.
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MY FAULT
T HE BELL RINGS . Iâm the first one out.
But thereâs no escape. Carlos is right there.
âWhat happened?â he asks.
âNothing.â
âAw, shit. Serious?â He looks 100 percent disappointed Luis didnât destroy me. Then he brightens up and says, âOh, I get it. Callado making you sweat this thing out first. Thatâs just like him. What class you got next?â
Vice Principal Carter appears out of nowhere and says, âMr. DÃaz, I have something awesome I want you to see!â He scratches his head. âI forget what itâs called. Oh, yeah! Itâs called your second-period class. Youâre going to love it.â
âYou ever try comedy, Mr. C.?â
âEvery day, Carlos.â
They take a few steps toward Mr. Bellâs class, then Carter turns around and says to me, âSamuel Gregory, how âbout a smile today? This place isnât all that bad.â
Dudeâs a dope.
Then Carlos shouts, â Ojos , guëy! Keep your eyes