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know from the beginning that this was him I would have said no
without question.

 
          He looked at me
with those eyes and told me how sorry he was for hurting me and that if I was
happy that he would have to respect it and move on. Those damn eyes. He reached
in to hug me and that was it. His scent took me back to that blue chaise sofa
in his bedroom. I guess it did something for him too because I felt his little
man pressing against my thigh. Then he began kissing my neck. I tried to push
him away, but, I was too weak. Mesmerized by his touch and those damn eyes. It
was my first time all over again.
    “You want me to stop”, he whispered in my ear.
    I was speechless.
    “I love you Kammie”, he said as he pressed himself inside of
me.
    I was lost in the moment. Nothing else mattered. I knew then
that this was going to be harder to get rid of him than I expected. They say
everyone has that one person that they will always go back to no matter what.
Well, he was mine. He was my kryptonite. He took me places sexually that no one
else did. It was so much more than just a physical connection. I couldn’t
explain it; I just knew it was something else. Maybe we were meant to be. I
gripped his bare back and pulled him in closer. I could hear his heart beat and
it was like music to my ears. He lifted me off the sofa and carried me into the
bedroom. I happened to glance at him as he laid me on the bed and noticed
‘Kammie’ tattooed on his forearm. It was then that I realized, he wasn’t gonna
let me go without a fight. He meant it when he said about me not being married
yet and him still having a chance. He wanted me and was willing to do whatever
he had to do to get me.

 
    4

 
          The plane ride home
was solemn at best. I kept trying to figure out what I was going to tell Darrin
when he picked me up from the airport. I took my time walking to the exit
trying to hold on to every second that I had before confession time. I was
hoping that the look of suspicion wouldn’t be a dead giveaway. I’d have to just
suck it up and deal with it. As I was walking out of the door, I noticed Kyle’s
car parked in the front. Darrin had sent him to pick me up because he got tied
up at work. If I knew how, I would’ve hit a backflip right then and there. I
couldn’t hold it in so I told Kyle everything that happened from the time I got
there to the time I left.
    “Damn, baby girl”, he responded in amazement, “He did you like
that”?
    “So, with everything I just said that’s all you took from it”,
I snapped.
    “I’m just saying man. Dude ain’t playing wit you. My man Jake.
Then he got your name tatted on him. Yeah, in his mind you belong to him”.
    “But, I’m engaged Kyle”.
    “But, that didn’t stop you from giving up your lil goodies,
Kamerai”.
    “That’s not the point. I’ve never been able to tell him no. I
don’t know what it is. I’m Superman and he’s my kryptonite. This is crazy. I
need to find a rock and hide. I gotta tell Dee”.
    “No hell you don’t gotta tell Dee. See that’s where y’all
women get it twisted. We don’t wanna know all that. You tell that man you slept
with your ex, if he don’t beat your ass first; which I’ll kill him if he tried
it, you can forget about a wedding, hell, you can forget about a relationship
period. Don’t tell him nothing besides you had a good trip and you got the
deal. For real Kam, I don’t wanna have to hurt that man for doing something to
you. Just let it go”.

 
          Even though I knew
it was wrong, I decided to take my brother’s advice and let it go. I loved
Darrin and I wanted to marry him. Yes, I loved Jake too but that was in the
past. I was content with my new life and I wasn’t going to let Jake or anyone
else ruin that. When Darrin got home that evening I did exactly what Kyle said;
lied straight through my teeth. It was so bad that I got nauseous. I told
Darrin that it must have been from the plane ride