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you took it upon yourself to kill my baby. Our baby? You
killed our baby, Kamerai? Why would you do that”, he yelled.
    “I tried calling you. I left you messages. I tried everything
that I could think of to get in touch with you. You cut me off, remember?
Instead of talking to me like a man, you let somebody put in your head that I
was a whore and you ran with it. I thought that we were better than that Jake.
And no I didn’t kill your baby. I had a miscarriage. The doctor said it was
because I was under too much stress”.
    “I should’ve known that girl was foul. You told me she was
foul. She’s the one who gave me the picture. That’s why I didn’t return your
calls. I thought you were trying to play me. I had just signed a big contract,
for more money than I had ever seen in my life. I guess I was scared. I
should’ve known better than that. You always had my back. I’m sorry Kammie. I’m
so sorry. I’m sorry you went through that and it was all my fault. I caused you
to lose our child. Man, I love you Kam. I never stopped loving you. My life has
been hell without you.”

 
          I realized that I
had been holding in that bitterness for all those years. That’s why I had a
wall up. I started bawling like a new born baby; nose running and all. Jake
pulled me in to him like he did when we were kids and all of those feelings
came right back. He kissed me on the forehead and wrapped me in his arms. It
was such a familiar place. I lost myself in that moment. I closed my eyes and
embraced what was happening. I felt safe with him. I felt secure. “I lost you
once, Kammie, I’m not losing you again”, he whispered in my ear.
         
          And then I
remembered that I was engaged. I slowly lifted my head, wiped my eyes and
walked over to the conference table on the other side of the office.
    “I’m engaged, Jake. My wedding is next month”, I told him as I
gathered my things, realizing that I needed to get out of there and fast.
    “Engaged”, he responded, “Well, you’re not married so.”
    “Don’t even try it. I’m engaged and I’ll be married in a few
weeks. What we had was good but it’s in the past. I have a whole new life now.
I can’t just throw that away. Darrin and I are building a life together and
that’s where I wanna be”.
    “That’s bull Kammie and you know it. We’re meant to be
together. It was fate that brought us back together like this.”
    “No! It was you being deceitful that brought us back together
like this. I gotta go Jake. I can’t work on this account. I’ll let my dad know
everything that happened”.

 
          I didn’t wait to
hear his response. I walked out of the door, went down to the lobby and had the
receptionist call the driver. He took me back to the hotel and I planned to
leave on the first thing smoking. There wasn’t a flight out until the next
morning so I’d have to wait. I needed to tell Darrin what happened but there
was no way that I could tell him over the phone, so, when I talked to him that
night, I pretended like everything was just fine. After getting off the phone
with him, I laid in the bed and just cried. Yes, I missed Jake and yes, I still
loved him, but, I was in love with Darrin and I wanted to marry him. Just as I
was starting to fall asleep, there was a knock at the door. To my unsurprise (I
made that up), it was Jake.

 
          I let him in and we
sat on the sofa and talked. It felt like old times. He confided in me about
some of the things he encountered while playing overseas. Drugs, alcohol abuse,
sleeping with multiple women, waking up not knowing what he had done the night
before. He said it was his way of dealing with our breakup. He hadn’t been in a
committed relationship since he and I dated and was not looking for one until
he ran across my picture on the internet (insert side eye). He wanted to reach
out and this was the only way he figured he could get to me. He was right,
because, had I