why he hadnât said a word to her beforehand, but had simply stepped up to the microphone and announced their impending marriage.
Tonight, heâd said in his charming, dark whiskey voice, they were in for a delightful surprise. Everyone was going to get a living example of how much of a real family St. John Electronics was because they were all going to be witnesses at his shipboard marriage to Simon St. Johnâs only daughter, Margaret Sydney St. John.
Her!
He had taken marriageâ her marriageâand turned it into a business deal.
And then heâd had the temerity to meet her gaze and smile at her! As if she would approve!
Sydney had gone cold. And white. Stunned and speechless.
Which is probably exactly what heâd been counting on. And when she finally got her voice back, as he came over and put his arm around her shoulders and gave her a squeeze, she still couldnât say what she was thinking.
Because she knew better. Simon St. John had taught her well. The company always came first.
So there was no chance that Syd would undermine her fatherâs firm or his representatives in public. She always did what was âbest for the company.â Corporate from her head to her toes, Syd would never gainsay his claim.
And Roland knew that. Heâd played upon it, had counted on her agreement and on her going through with it because their marriage would be in the best interests of St. John Electronics.
But even though she might believe that, she couldnât do it.
Not like this.
His announcement had shocked her to her core. Only years of social conditioning had prevented her from showing it on her face. But whether she was more shocked by his announcement or by her own reaction to it was something she was going to have to think about.
If heâd asked her to marry him, if heâd wooed her, charmed her, pretended to love her, Syd had the sneaking suspicion she might have said yes.
But he hadnât. Heâd presumed and simply expected her to go along with itâfor the good of the company. Not because he loved her. Roland had never ever pretended to love her. They were business associates.
And yet he would have married her!
If she had been willing, Syd realized, sheâd be Mrs. Roland Carruthers right now. No, she corrected herself, Roland would have been Mr. St. John Electronics.
Because it was all about business. Nothing else.
Yet if he had pretendedâSyd shuddered to think about how close she might have come to agreeing, if heâd gone about it in a less manipulative fashionâshe might have done it.
Thank God Roland dared to assume! Now she knew there was a line across which she wouldnât go.
No matter how good it would be for St. John Electronics, no matter how happy their marriage would make her father, she would not marry for the company.
She would only marry for love.
But she couldnât have said that in front of the guests!
Sheâd tried talking him out of it as heâd escorted her below to change into the silvery beaded dress. âThis is crazy, Roland,â sheâd said. âYouâve had too much sun.â
âOn the contrary,â heâd assured her, âitâs exactly right. For everyone.â Heâd turned a deaf ear to all her objections. âYou know itâs for the best, Margaret.â He always called her Margaret because her father did. âDonât act missish,my dear,â heâd said, steering her toward her stateroom. âItâs not like you.â
No. It wasnât. But neither was just mindlessly doing what she was bullied into. And so she had shut the stateroom door on him.
âHurry and change, Margaret,â heâd said. âEveryone is waiting.â
âI am not marrying you, Roland,â sheâd said through the door.
âOh, Margaret, for goodnessâ sake,â heâd said with irritating good humor. âStop fussing and get a move on.