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like they were more holy than the Grail. And I’m pretty sure she hated kids, which made it ridiculous that she worked at a school.
    Of course, now she looks worse than ever. Her clothes are filthy and torn and her skin is an unnatural shade of gray. The right lens in her glasses is missing and the one still remaining is cracked. A handful of hair has been torn out at the roots and what’s left is matted in dried blood, and the huge bite mark on her neck tells me exactly how she died.
    A wave of sorrow sweeps over me as she claws at the window, her mouth chopping in response to the primal need inside her that tells her to feed. I raise my hand and rest it against the window, the glass cold against my palm, but that only seems to drive her wilder. She snarls, slamming her body against the door and the whole thing shakes. Tears fill my eyes and I force myself to turn away.
    Damn Riley.
    My feet are heavy as I make my way back toward the cafeteria, but when footsteps echo down the hall behind me, I pick up the pace. Riley isn’t too far behind and I don’t want to see him. Not after what he said to me in the locker room. Not after I degraded myself that way. Not after crying over a librarian I never really liked to begin with.
    “Kyra!” His voices echoes, sending a shudder through me. I hate how everything echoes now. It’s just a reminder that the world has disappeared.
    I walk faster.
    “Hey!” His steps move faster. “Wait up!”
    He’s gaining on me, so I wipe my hand across my face to get rid of the tears. I feel like a stupid girl crying because some guy slept with her and never called her back. That’s never been me.
    Riley grabs my arm and forces me to turn. “Why’d you run away?”
    I laugh before I can stop myself, and with the laughter more tears are forced from my eyes. I wipe them away. “Shit. I feel ridiculous.”
    Riley’s brown eyes search my face. “Did I say something to hurt your feelings?”
    “Yes, but it was stupid. I’m just being overly sensitive.”
    He nods and lets out a deep breath. “I guess that’s to be expected with everything going on.”
    He has a point. This isn’t like me at all. I’m not the kind of girl who plays games. If I want something, I go for it. I don’t flirt or giggle or try to ensnare guys with my charms. I’m forthcoming and honest and I say what’s on my mind.
    This should be no different.
    “I’m an idiot. I liked it and it was a great distraction, but it hurt like hell when you told me you fucked me so you didn’t have to talk about your feelings. It’s dumb and not usually how I react. Like you said, there’s just too much going on.”
    Riley swipes his hand through his wet hair. “Damn. Sorry. I didn’t mean for it to sound like that. I just mean I wanted to fuck you so I could forget all this shit going on inside me. It didn’t really help, which was why I fucked you again.”
    “Still didn’t work?”
    He snorts. “Not really. When we were going at it, yeah. But the second we were done everything came back and reality sucked all over again. ”
    “Yeah,” I say, the word coming out of me almost like a sigh.
    We stand in the hallway for a few seconds staring at each other like neither one of us has a clue what to say. He’s right. I felt good while we were having sex.
    “Well, anytime you need to forget you just let me know,” I say turning to continue my trek to the cafeteria. “For now, I’m going to see if they’ve started breakfast.”
    Riley walks by my side, his arm brushing mine. “Sounds like a plan.”

Riley and I walk into the cafeteria, almost everyone stops what they’re doing so they can stare. A few people narrow their eyes on us and it dawns on me that we’re both still wet from the shower. It has to be glaringly obvious to everyone present that we were there together, and even though I’ve never been one to really feel ashamed of the decisions I’ve made, my face gets hot.
    Riley doesn’t even blink. He