all a flash fraud.
Harmony! Once â¦
Like one of the iron filings leaping to the pull of the magnet, Barryâs memory leaped to a morning three and a half years ago, the corridor outside the secretaryâs office at Marsden Ash Junior School.
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Why did he have to have one today? Why today? Barry was used to his headaches. Mum called them migraines. She had them, too. You realised you were going to have one while you were still asleepâin your last dream it was thereâand then you woke up with a dry, sick mouth and a pulsing, stodgy ache filling your skull, and the moment you moved, it rose to a whine of pain. On a good day it would ease off around teatime, but sometimes it would carry on into next day. If you still had it when you went to bed, you knew youâd wake up with it the next morning. Aspirin just made it a bit duller.
Mumâs answer was to draw the curtains and lie on the sofa and moan, but if you did that, it was worse because you had only your headache to think about, so Barry had invented a sort of cupboard in his mind and learned how to stuff most of the pain into it and get the door almost shut, which left the rest of his mind free to try and think about other things. Trouble was the cupboard door didnât lock, so you had to keep your foot against it all the time, which messed you up when it came to doing your best at anything important â¦
Such as the first football game. Today. This afternoon. Why did he have to have one today? Heâd felt fine yesterday, barging around, letting the other kids know heâd been in the first team two years at his old school and got a record number of goals last year. But now â¦
Wouldnât have mattered back in Thursley. He could just have said heâd got one of his headaches, and theyâd still have kept him a place. But here, in filthy, rotten Marsden Ash, theyâd reckon he was scared after his boasting. Why did it â¦
Around and around and around in his skull. Bear in his pit, around and around and around.
The bench was a shiny old varnished thing, the corridor outside the secretaryâs office was green tiles below and dirty whitewashed brick above. It was typical of everything in this grotty old school, with its beat-up old books and its soap smells and cabbage smells and echoes. And the school was typical of dirty, drab Marsden Ash, which wasnât much more than a lot of run-down mills and factories crammed into a valley because a canal had once been there. At Thursley thereâd been farms, and a new house with a lawn big enough to kick a ball around on, and he hadnât had to share a bedroom with Don; and at school thereâd been Jeff and Paul and Gavin and the others, whereas here there were just a lot of roughs who picked on you because of the way you talked and put in a swear every third word to prove how tough they were. No wonder heâd shot his mouth off a bit over the football.
If the secretary would give him a couple of aspirin. He hadnât had any so far because if heâd told Mum about the headache, sheâd have kept him at home ⦠Oh, come on! The secretary had another kid with her, a Pakistani girl (far more of them here than at Thursley) whoâd fallen and gravelled her knee and was snivelling while the secretary dabbed it with cream. Heâd seen that when heâd put his head around the door and the secretary had snapped at him to wait. Most of the staff snapped at you here. Come on! Doesnât take hours to put cream on a knee!
Barry stirred with impatience and, doing so, knocked the back of his head against a sort of brick ledge that jutted out above the bench. His brain yelped with the flood of pain. The world went red-black. He leaned his face forward into the palms of his hands, drowned in pain, struggling not to vomit. Whew! That had done it! Heâd have to go home now after all â¦
âYouâve got a nasty head.â
A cold, small,