then,
something I would never expect happens. The pain fades away leading to a
feeling I have never experienced before. It’s pure pleasure. I feel like I am
being reborn. Like a new world has just opened for me. Like everything I knew
was only a part of what really exists.
His thrusts
become more intense scraping my back against the tough, uneven surface of the
tree. My whole body aches but I have never felt more alive, more fulfilled. I
let his rhythm carry me away and turn my head to face him.
His eyes are
filled with desire. Desire for me. I tilt forward and kiss him. My initiative
drives him crazy. He possesses my mouth passionately and he takes me like an
animal. Like an animal that he is.
I feel him pulsating inside me and then it’s all over. He rests his
head on my chest out of breath.
He is still
inside me and hugging me. I lay my head on his, starving for some support, some
tenderness. He has brought me to a new dimension. It’s only natural I feel a
bond having been created between him and me.
He lifts his
head and pulls out of me. I feel empty when he leaves me. And humiliated. There
is something coursing down my thigh. When I look down to see what it is I close
my eyes in disgust. It’s blood mixed with my arousal.
“Open your
eyes,” he says.
I do so. He is
looking at me with a mischievous smile from head to toe and I blush.
“You did well on
your first test,” he reassures me. “I am proud of you. I didn’t think you would
pull it off. You are a good girl.”
He moves behind
me and unties my hands. When he comes in front again, he rubs my wrists
smoothly to relieve me off the pressure the rope has caused.
“Lift your
hands,” he says.
I’m unable to
resist him. As I lift my arms he takes the dress off me. I am completely naked
as he is. He lifts me on his arms as if I were a little girl, close to his warm
body. Spontaneously, I coil my arms around his neck and let my head on his shoulder.
He doesn’t make me feel scared anymore. I am…calm. And content. Unusually
content.
He gets in the
lake still carrying me in his arms. As soon as I’m in the water he lets me
float. He strokes every part of my body, washing my last inhibitions away.
“Your turn now,”
he says.
“My turn?”
“To wash me.”
I blush once
more and turn my head away from him.
“Come on. What
are you waiting for?” he says impatiently.
I reluctantly
pass my wet hands over his chest. Then I sink them once more in the cool water
and caress his belly.
“My arms,” he
says and I gently rub them with water.
“Now lower,” he
suggests.
I look at him in
terror. I can’t touch him there. I just can’t.
“Calista? I told
you something and I expect you to do it.”
“I don’t want
to.”
“Fine.” He is
angry.
He drags me out
of the water and takes me in his arms once more. I protest this time and hit
him on his chest.
“Let me go,” I
shout.
He rushes into
the hut and lets me down by the bed.
“Stay here,” he
orders.
I nod, not
understanding what he wants.
He goes to the
shelves where he keeps several things and picks a rope.
That doesn’t
seem good. My earlier experience with ropes wasn’t good.
Calista,
wasn’t it? Don’t lie to yourself.
I need a towel.
I’m still dripping. But something tells me he won’t grant me this luxury.
“What are you
going to do to me?” I ask raising my chin up, trying to save what’s left of my
dignity.
“I’m going to
tie you to the bed.”
“What?”
“Calista, I have
to go hunting. We have to eat something. In the meanwhile, since I don’t trust
you, you will wait for me here, tied.”
“No, I won’t!” I
run to the exit but he is faster than me and catches me. He pins me to the bed,
holding my hands above my head. With his other hand he ties them together.
I start crying.
“What do you
want from me? I thought…I thought we…we…”
“We?” he says angry,
while he ties the end of the rope to the bed. He looks at me after