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    At least you switched back to English briefly after that. “They’ll come back,” you said quietly, in almost your own voice. But the next thing you said, at least it wasn’t in the language of the Architects, but it came out with a great anguished struggle, each word a burden. It was like you were possessed by someone, speaking in tongues. The “other” voice, coming through yours, was clearer now, not American, and oh, I knew it so well. It could almost have been mine.
    Your mother. “It’s everything, Daniel. Everything and nothing. If only they’d known.”
    You bent over, choking and gasping, and her voice came again.
    “Everything and nothing. If only they had known. They’ll come back. Stop them, Daniel. Before it’s too late.”

P ART I:
    A FTERMATH

C HAPTER 1
    T HE U NIVERSE V ANISHES
    Don’t worry, I’m going to tell you the whole story. Everything you missed, everything you were robbed of, everything that happened at the edge of your understanding when you were present but absent. Yes, the whole story of what I tried to make sense of, and what I tried to do to help you, and what happened instead. But I can’t do that, can’t give you a true picture of what happened out there in the world, without you knowing what I was dealing with privately, inside me, in here . (The public and the private. Facts versus feelings. Is and seems . “A theme to which we’ll return,” as your dad liked to say in his lectures. Oh aye.) And I want especially to make one wee detail of my inner emotional geography totally clear.
    OK by you if we do that?
    Cards on the table, before we move on?
    So. The short version is that when we got back from Ararat, your famously brilliant, logical, levelheaded sister was a sniveling, useless mess. A mental and emotional farm-fry. Exhausted, rattled, a bag of nerves without a clue. I wanted answers, and I wanted them yesterday, and I had to face the fact that I didn’t even know what questions to ask. Oh, and I was desperately, desperately thirsty for you to recognize me and say my name; failing that, to answer a question, or ask one; failing that, to at least say something I could understand. But you weren’t there. Your will, your motivation, your self wasn’t there—or else it was there, but it was buried under layers of rubble, like an earthquake victim, trying and failing to claw its way back to the surface.
    “It’s everything, and it’s nothing,” you’d say. “It’s everywhere and nowhere. Now.”
    “What is, D? Are you talking about the Architects? Are you talking about something you saw, something you experienced when they were there?”
    “It’s light, everywhere. It’s a—, it’s a—”
    “A what?”
    “A kind of perfection.”
    “What is?”
    “A hunger.”
    “Daniel, please—”
    “No bodies. No emotions. No time.”
    “Daniel—”
    Then there’d be five minutes of silence, or a day of silence, and you’d suddenly say: “They will return for us.”
    That was the kind of thing that came out, when you spoke, and even the half-lucid moments were erratic and fleeting. You had a foot in two worlds, and you were fully present in neither of them. Limbo: isn’t that what Catholics call it—like, a traffic jam in the afterlife, when you’ve departed but you can’t arrive? Ninety-nine percent of the time you were silent, enigmatic, and unreachable. And on top of that you scared the crap out of me by shifting without warning between a manner that was relaxed, as if you were just an amused observer of the human comedy, and a burning anguish that only your eyes could articulate. Above all else, I wanted to find a way to bring you back, to rescue you from whatever had happened up there, but both your anxiousness and your long silences reminded me of the worst rumor from the outside world. One by one the Mysteries were “coming to a stop,” as someone had said, “like battery-powered toys when the juice runs out.” For all their