Forever Breathing (Just Breathe #3) Read Online Free

Then I remember my dream. Alex, he was in trouble or something wasn’t right. I slowly open my eyes as I realize who is running his hands through my hair. As my eyes meet his, my silent question is answered, I must have called out in my sleep. I look away uneasily.
    “Hey, are you alright? Were you having a nightmare?”
    That’s a good question. Why is Alex popping into my head now? Guilt, that must be it. The guilt I feel, in increasing with each day that I don’t find out whether he is still alive or not. But how do I answer this without hurting Jack?
    “Yeah, a nightmare.” I brush it away but catch the uncertainty in his eyes as he turns his head.
    I sink back into the bunk trying to fully wake up. Suddenly Jack gets up and without looking back he tells me, “I have to go to the caves. Jaspen is planning a move to the castle pretty soon.”
    I lay there staring at his back. How can just a few words put a wedge between us like this?
    “Jack?”
    He turns slowly, uncertain.
    I hold out my arms to him with pleading eyes. He climbs over to me and lies down next to me. I push him onto his back and sit up so that I am looking down at him.
    “I love you. I love you so much and nothing will ever change that.”
    He smiles, “I know. I love you too. I will give you space though, if you need it. I don’t want to push youloo to pus away.” He brings his hand up to push my hair out of my face.
    “I don’t need any space. My dreams they… I can’t control them.”
    He nods, “I understand. I know you spent time with Alex.  I just don’t want you to be unhappy.”
    I shake my head, “Jack, you have nothing to worry about.” I take a deep sea breath and continue as my heart speeds up, “He is a friend. A friend that I… truthfully…I am worried about. No one knows where he is…” There, I feel better now, that I got that off my chest.
    He pushes up so we are eye to eye. I watch as the blue in his eyes that has been present for weeks, gives way to the worrisome green. Damn that green!  He must know something and he kept it from me. I push up and swim across the room.
    “You know something and you kept it from me all this time, didn’t you? What do you know?” I hear my voice waver and crack.
    He gets up swimming toward me. The green in his eyes has pushed all remnants of blue away but his face is clear of worry. He holds his hands up in peace. I cross my arms and move away so I’m against the wall.
    “Okay Ever, we didn’t tell you because well, because of this.”
    My blood boils, “What? What is this , you mean you kept something from me again, because you didn’t want me to have a freak out? Well here’s me having a freak out without even knowing what you are about to say. You caused the freak out by keeping something from me. Are you happy? Here’s me freaking out Jack!” I can’t believe this is happening again. He is keeping things from me and I thought we were past this.
    He sighs, “Ever, he’s still alive.”
    My breath catches involuntarily and relief spreads. A frown crosses Jack’s face and he finishes with no emotion.
    “Sara, Metea, Mersa, and Alex all fled the city when the Erebus claimed it. No one has seen them since.”
    He turns placing his hand on the door handle. He tells me over his shoulder sadly, “I’m sorry we kept this from you, we thought you would be upset that Sara is still out there.”
    My anger surfaces. He did it again, lied and kept something from me.
    He turns hesitant for a moment but comes over to me pulling me into a small embrace before I have a chance to confront him. He utters over my head, “Ever, everything I do is for you, please know that.”
    When he backs up he tells me, “I have to go, Jaspen will be waiting.” He lingers as if he wants nothing more than to stay right here. But he turns and places his hand on the door handle.
    I ask, still visibly upset, “When you say we , you mean James knew?”
    He nods and whispers, “Yes,” as he