that she is on the phone. She is probably talking to Trevor again. I walk back to my room and set my phone on its iHome docking station. I’m in the mood for music. Stateless’ “Bloodstream”fills the room and my mind falls on Grayson. The doorbell rings followed by heavy knocking. I can hear Jordan padding to the door so I resume my trance. Then I hear an angry Jordan and I go on alert.
“You can’t be here you bastard. I’m calling the fucking police.” Oh she is spitting mad. Her steps are louder now as two sets of footsteps head toward my door.
“Do what you must, sweetheart, but I’m not leaving without talking to her.” Damn.
The door swings open and there he is. His eyes are pleading for me to hear him out. “You didn’t answer my texts or my calls. We need to talk.”
“She doesn’t have shit to say to you, asswipe,” Jordan spits.
“Jordan, it’s okay. I’ll handle this. Let us have a minute.” She rolls her eyes in frustration and stomps away. I know leaving was hard for her to do, but she is giving me the privacy I asked for. I cross my arms over my chest and Grayson’s eyes immediately keen in on my now lifted breasts. It is only now that I realize that I’m only in a camisole and panties.
I shrug my shoulders. Well, it’s not like he hasn’t seen me naked. “What do you want, Grayson?”
“Are you back with Liam? Are you fucking him?” His hands are balled into fists at his side.
“That’s none of your business. Next question.” He actually growls at my response before taking a deep breath.
“Okay. Let me try again. I want to start by apologizing that I didn’t come see you in the hospital. I feel like it was all my fault.”
“So you’re here out of guilt? Let me save you the trouble. It’s not your fault. It was the rain.” I don’t tell him that I was crying my eyes out. “And you did come. You just let Vanessa talk you out of seeing me. There was no need to tarnish your reputation for me.”
He closes the distance between us. He reaches for me, but then lets his hands fall to his side when he sees my opposing stance. “Oh baby, is that what you thought? You couldn’t be further from the truth.” He has the nerves to reach for me again, but I back away. Meanwhile “Bloodstream” continues to play like a soundtrack for our reunion.
“Oh no. You don’t get to call me that. You left me remember?” He flinches at my accusation.
“I’m sorry that you had to hear that, but if you were listening, you’d know that I had to leave.” He starts pacing back and forth. “I left to protect you. Not me. I—,”
“Bullshit. I didn’t ask you to protect me.” He rushes back over to me and pulls me into his arms, but I struggle to get free.
“I promise you, I didn’t want to leave. I just couldn’t risk your academic future by calling Vanessa’s bluff.”
I finally break free and we just stare at each other. Then the strangest thing happens. Grayson drops to his knees in surrender. His hands grasp my hips as he rests his head on my stomach. I can feel his labored breaths. The grip he has on my hips tightens to the point his arms are trembling. I’m frozen to this spot. He is barely holding it together and I’m caught off guard. I’ve never seen this side of him. He seems so broken. He keeps his head buried in my stomach as he begins to talk. “Tell me how to make this right, baby. I need to make us right again,” he pleads.
“You dumped me, Grayson. And then you fucked Vanessa and rubbed my face in it at Bailey’s house-warming.” I try to separate myself from him, but he is still holding on tight.
“I got scared and pushed you away. I was scared because I fell in love with you. I am irrevocably in love with you.”
“So let me get this straight. You fall in love with me, so you go and stick your dick in someone else? That’s real comforting.”
“I panicked, but I swear it would never happen again. I just wasn’t ready. The last time I