thereâs someone inside moaning, half starved, for food. I canât remember if I ate any supper.
I creep downstairs, placing each foot carefully, avoiding all the squeaky places on the stairs. I donât want to wake up my mom. I donât want to wake up Claire.
And then I hear voices. My heart begins to pound in double time. I listen. Itâs my mother. And Claire.
I press myself against the wall and move through the dining room to the living room doorway. I donât know why Iâm hiding. The French doors are partly open. I lean around the doorframe and take a quick look through the closest pane of glass.
Mom is curled in the corner of the sofa, in a circle of light from a nearby lamp. Sheâs wearing the plaid housecoat I gave her last Christmas. Claire is sitting in the wing chair, in a silky pink-flowered robe, perfect posture as usual.
â...just makes more sense to do it now,â Claire is saying.
Mom seems to be looking beyond Claire. I lean a bit closer to the open doors to catch her voice.
âWe just had your fatherâs funeral today,â she says. âI havenât been able to think beyond that. Iâm not even sure about all the details of his will.â She sounds very tired.
âThe tea set belonged to my great-grandmother. I know my father would want me to have it. And as for the pearl necklace, you know that itâs always stayed in the family.â
âYouâre not the only person in the family.â
âI donât think a teenager would have much use for a string of pearls.â
âDâArcy isnât going to be a teenager forever.â
âIn other words, you want everything for your child.â
My dadâs only been gone for a few days, and already theyâre fighting over his things.
âSheâs your sister, Claire,â Mom says. âIâm not trying to cheat you out of anything, but I will not allow you to take things from this house until I know what your father wanted. Iâll see that anything thatâs been left to you is sent. I wouldnât want you to have to make another trip.â
âYouâre being unreasonable, Leah. My fatherââ
My motherâs head snaps up. Sheâs looking directly at Claire now. â
My husband
is dead. Iâm entitled to be somewhat unreasonable.â There is silence.
Claireâs voice is low, and I almost miss that sheâs started talking. âAnd what kind of a wife were you, Leah? Didnât you notice what was going on with him or did you just not care? My father killed himself. Did you even try to help him?â
One of my motherâs hands snaps up, and for a second I expect her to get up and slap Claire. Then the hand drops into her lap, the fingers pulled into a fist. I press the heel of my own hand over my mouth.
âYou donât have a clue what was going on here. You didnât even know your father.â My motherâs voice is tight with anger. âWhere the hell were you, Claire? Acting like a spoiled child because Mommy and Daddy got divorced. You wouldnât come to see him or spend any time with us. Do you know howmuch you hurt him? And he never stopped trying with you. You werenât much of a daughter, Claire.â
Mom lets out a breath. âMy husbandâs things stay in my husbandâs home until I know what he wants me to do with them. Good night, Claire.â She puts her head back against the sofa and closes her eyes.
Claire gets up, and in a minute I hear the flap of her slippers going upstairs.
I rub my eyes with the back of my hand and swallow the tears before they can get away. It wouldnât be this way if my dad were here. The last time he came home, it was from Alaska. We had grilled cheese sandwiches in the middle of the night, and my dad told us all about the bears heâd gone to photograph. My mom said, âThereâs school tomorrow.â
Dad swirled her around