Finding Peace (Finding Series Book 1) Read Online Free

wonderful way to work through your problems in your own head. This silence is killing me, because I want to scream. ‘David, please just let me go! Let me have my life back. I’m not the girl for you anymore and you’re not the guy for me. We aren’t doing anything but hurting each other. Please, please let me go.’ But instead, this suffocating silence remains.
    We finish our meal and David leaves the table to pay and to get change so that he can leave Melissa a tip. I take this opportunity to walk outside and wait for him by the car. I lean against the Mustang and look up at the sky.
    The sky is clear tonight and there are so many stars it’s breathtaking. I say a silent prayer. God, I need your guidance. Help me with this because I’m lost. I don’t know how to fix this. I hate to hurt anyone but this is hurting me down to my soul. Thank you for everything.
    Taking in a deep breath, the air is still so cool at night here, even though Spring Break is in a week. I’m looking forward to spending some time with Tessa and her boyfriend, Asher Johnson. Tessa and Asher have been together since freshman year and they are adorable. I love spending time with them. However, they aren’t too keen on spending time with David. David walks out of the restaurant and opens his door and gets in. I sigh and get into the passenger side of the car. The ride home is silent and awkward.
    He pulls into the driveway and I immediately open my door and get out. David leans over the seat and looks up at me. “I love you, Kayla. More than you’ll ever know.”
    Nodding my head, because I don't know what else to say to him, I gently close the door. The thing is, I just can't bring myself to tell him empty words just to appease him. This has to end because there's no way I can keep going the way I am.
    I walk through the front door and right up the stairs to the room I share with Tessa. She isn’t home from her date with Asher yet. So, I lie down on my bed and let the tears fall down my face to soak my pillow.
    There was a time I thought I loved David, but that was a long time ago and looking back on it now, I don’t think it was truly love. Not the kind that you feel all the way to your toes. You know, the kind that causes all your breath to leave your lungs just because they walk into the room. Or that butterfly feeling you get in your stomach in anticipation of seeing them. Maybe that kind of love doesn’t exist. I’ve read about it but never experienced it. I pray again for a solution to the problem. I’ve been told that God answers prayers, just not always in the time frame that we want.
     
     
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    I wake to a loud bang and the sound of Tessa’s voice echoing through the room. The girl is loud. Very loud, it’s just part of her charm. Oh great, now comes the thumping music. I am not and never have been a morning person. It seems as though Tessa is trying to make me one.
    “Tessa!” She doesn’t hear me. “Tessa!” Still no response.
    So, I sit up in the bed prepared to throw my pillow at her, but when I look at her I want to bust out laughing. She is dancing around the room in her t-shirt and underwear like a crazy person. Now, to add to my discomfort, she is singing at the top of her lungs. I can’t resist. I throw my pillow as hard as I can at her. She abruptly stops and looks at me with her mouth hanging open and then she narrows her eyes at me.
    “No! You did not just throw a pillow at me while I was getting my Cabbage Patch on?”
    Seriously, these stupid dances, who comes up with this stuff?
    “Hello! Trying to sleep here. Go Cabbage Patch somewhere else.”
    You’ve got to be kidding me. I seriously need to rethink this friendship. Tessa has now moved to my bed and is flopping around like a fish out of water. I can’t help it, I start laughing at her madness. This girl seriously knows how to get me out of a bad mood. This is why I love her crazy butt.
    “Okay! Okay! I’m up. I’m