alarms me that you would pick up an application and try to hide it from me."
"I don't understand why you don't want me to get a job."
"Because it's pointless. I pay for everything you need and want. What use do you have for a minimum wage job, unless you're going there to meet someone else?"
I stared at him with an incredulous expression. "Do you actually think I would get a job to cheat on you?"
"I don't know what to think! Why would you need a job when I pay for everything you need?"
"Maybe I like books and I think it would be fun to work in a bookstore."
He scoffed. "Don't be stupid."
I stared at him, unable to believe how he was behaving. Had he been changing recently, or had he always acted like this and I never noticed?
"What's wrong with you lately?" I asked, after the thought crossed my mind.
He cocked his head at me. "What's wrong with me?" he asked as he stared at me through narrowed eyes, clenching his teeth. "You are so ungrateful for everything I do for you."
"I'm not ungrateful, Robin. I'm very thankful for all you do for me. How is wanting to get a job being ungrateful? I would think you would see that as me wanting to help out."
"I would think you would see that as me wanting to help out," he said, mimicking me in a whiney tone.
He must've been drinking. I couldn't take it anymore, so I shook my head at him and started to walk off toward my bedroom. "Ted and Jay are waiting for you downstairs," I said with finality.
"They can wait," he said, grabbing my arm as I passed. I tried to squirm out of his grasp and his grip tightened. "That really hurts, Robin," I said calmly. "I still have bruises from the other day and you're hurting me."
"I can't believe you're going to bring up the other day when you have a ten thousand dollar stone hanging around your neck." he said, not letting me go.
"Take it, then," I said reaching back to unclasp it with my free hand. "Is that what you want? You want your necklace back?"
He pushed me backwards while letting go of my arm, causing me to stumble. I stared at him defiantly once I regained my balance.
"I want your respect, Emily. I deserve your respect. I do a lot for you, and you just act like an ungrateful little hoe."
My face turned to a mask of sadness as I racked my brain to figure out what I'd done to deserve the way he was treating me.
"You don't need a job," he said, with an edge of gentleness to his tone, finally.
We stood in silence for a few long seconds. "I know I don't need one," I said.
"I don't understand why you want one, then," he said. He stepped toward me to pull me into his arms, and I went, though it was reluctant at best.
"I'll talk to you tomorrow," I said. "Your friends are waiting." My face rested against his chest as I took in the familiar scent of his cologne.
He rubbed my back. "I'll talk to you in the morning," he said.
I nodded.
"I love you," he said.
I nodded again.
"I love you," he repeated.
"I love you too."
Chapter 4
I spent a lot of time with my family the following week. Carly and Micah's wedding was a simple affair for which they did not hire a wedding planner, so my mom and I had a considerable amount of work to do to get ready for it.
It was the middle of December, and we all assumed some of the guests would not be able to make it on account of holiday parties, but that wasn't the case. Nearly everyone they sent invitations to (and then some) had confirmed that they would be there, and we had a little scrambling to do to make arrangements for 150 guests.
I'd been to enough fancy weddings to know all the tricks with white lights and paper lanterns, and by the time we were done with the conference room at church, it looked like every bride's dream. Carly's family chipped in quite a bit, and we pulled off something beautiful in spite of the time constraints and the fact that none of us were professionals. We got together the night before for a quick run-through, but again, that was nothing fancy, and