all.â
Bell winced. That wasnât the sort of information you wanted visitors to know.
Her general estimation was now officially confirmed: Ryerson was a fool.
She addressed Hinkle again. âWhatâs your childâs name? So I can ask the nurse if heâs up for company.â
The man blinked and smiled. One of his front teeth was broken off just beyond the gum line. The other was gray. This was a hard man, and the smile didnât make him look any softer.
âAbraham,â he said. He said it proudly.
*Â Â Â *Â Â Â *
Despite the drama of his arrival, Hinkleâs visit was quiet, calm, and short.
As soon as Lily checked the admission records, and made sure that Abrahamâs father was indeed listed as Jess Hinkle, and then placed another phone call to double-check the information, she let him come in.
âUnfortunately,â Lily explained, âyou canât hold your son right now.â Bell and Hinkle stood at the threshold of the large room, well away from the small congress of basinets. Angie Clark wasnât present; she was in one of the back rooms, Bell assumed, running an errand for Lily.
âI canât?â Hinkle said.
âWe have to be very careful to guard against infection,â Lily said. âWeâre often gowned and gloved ourselves when we touch the babies.â
âRoger that,â he said. âIâll just be happy to see him. You know? Just to have a look.â
Lily nodded. âSure. Iâll hold him up for you.â She pointed. âHeâs right over there. Second basinet from the right.â She walked in that direction. She reached into the basinet and lifted the infant as high as she could without jostling the IV line. It wasnât very high. The child didnât cry or move. Nor did he open his eyes.
Bell watched Hinkle as he watched his son. The manâs eyes seemed to mist over. He pulled his hands in and out of his pockets, and in and out again. He licked his lips. His gaze never strayed from the scanty bundle held securely in the nurseâs big hands.
Hard to believe, Bell thought, that someone as rough-hewn and hard-used as Jess Hinkle could have been involved in the creation of something as fragile and beautiful as this child. Hard to believe that there could be any connection whatsoever between the large, scarred man and an infant of such exquisite delicacy.
Only after Lily had tucked Abraham back down in his bed and walked away to check on another child did Hinkle address Bell.
âThatâs my kid,â he said. âThatâs Abraham.â
âYes.â
She could sense a pent-up emotion in this man, an energy that seethed in him like the revving engine of a car stranded up on cinder blocks: It had nowhere to go. She noticed the insignia on his jacket and realized that he was in a motorcycle gang; that did not guarantee that heâd done bad things in his life, but she found it disappointing nonetheless. Some bikers simply loved the open road, and craved the crazy ride provided by the mountains of West Virginia, but othersâtoo many of themâsold drugs, and instantly lowered the life expectancy of anyone who got in their way.
Even after Abraham was placed back in the basinet, and his father couldnât see him anymore, the man still stood there, breathing heavily.
âHeâs so little,â Hinkle said. His voice was gravelly, but it was also faint, which stripped it of any menace.
âLow birth weight is pretty common for children who have the kinds of problems that Abraham does,â Bell said. âIâm sure that was explained to you.â
âYeah. They saidâthey said it was the drugs, right? The ones Tina takes. Nothingâs gonna get her to stop.â
Bell made no reply. She knew it wasnât a question he needed an answer to. He already had the answer. Hinkle was thinking out loud.
âThat shit,â he said. His voice had