out his hand again, but my mom slapped it away.
âBut . . .,â Dr. Helen continued.
We tensed up again. And then Dr. Helen told us she was going to need to run a series of brain tests to see if she could understand what exactly had happened to me at school. The first test was a big one. They were going to do an EEG of my brain.
âWhile itâs still in my head, right?â
Everyone laughed when I asked the question, but I figured it didnât hurt to be sure.
Dr. Helen explained it was a test where they attach wires to your head and get a printout of your brain waves like in a lie detector.
âOh, itâs kinda Frankenstein-y?â
Dr. Helen laughed this time. âIâve never thought about it like that, but sure, I guess it is.â
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The way I see it, my life is now divided into two sections. Before the brain tests, which is everything you just read about, and after the brain tests, which is what Iâm going to tell you about now.
My EEG was totally normal. My PET scan (which checked out my brain cells) was totally normal, and I guess itâs always third timeâs the charm, because it was my MRI that came back almost perfect, but not quite. Dr. Helen showed my parents and me the digital images of my brain that the MRI had captured. She said that the MRI was the most detailed of all the tests.
âWhich one was the MRI again? The one where you had to shave my head, the one with all the colors, or the one where I went into the giant bread machine?â
âBread machine.â Anyway, on that scan Dr. Helen said sheâd found a tiny spot, which could be a lesion or could be nothing at all.
At the mention of the word âlesion,â my mom starting breathing a little heavy, but Dr. Helen nipped her worries right in the bud. âIâm telling you right now that all those terrible things youâre thinking are not true. So donât go there.â My mom nodded. She completely believed in Dr. Helen, and so did I. She said for now, there was no way to tell if it was that tiny little spot that caused my episode, but it might have. She said seizures were far more common than we realize, and that most children who have seizures in their youth outgrow them as they get older.
âSo Iâm going to have another one?â
Dr. Helen shook her head. âBenji, we donât know that for sure. But for now, since the tests were inconclusive, we have to label it as idiopathic epilepsy.â
âWhatâs idiotic epilepsy?â
âItâs idiopathic epilepsy, which means epilepsy of an unknown origin.â
âBut I faint all the time. Why is this any different?â
âBenji, hush, let Dr. Helen talk. So are you saying Benji has epilepsy? That sounds serious. Is this why he faints a lot?â
âNo, Iâm not saying that at all. But what happened at school wasnât a fainting spell. Benji had a major seizure, and thatâs much more serious. Now, what Iâm most concerned about in Benjiâs case is that during his seizure, he hit his head on the floor hard enough to get a mild concussion.â
âWell,â I joked, âif it happens again, Iâll get my tenth punch in my hospital punch card. And Iâll get a prize!â
âBenji, you were very lucky to be at school when it happened, so you were able to get immediate attention. But what if it happens again and you arenât at school, or at home with your mom? What if it happens when youâre crossing the street, or at the mall, or swimming, or at home alone?â
âWell, if it happened somewhere else, I guess Iâd fall down. But if I was swimming, Iâd . . .â Then I stopped talking. I understood what she was trying to tell us. My mom got her point too, because she started doing that short, quick breathing she does when she starts getting upset, and she also pulled me into her arms and squeezed me,