Maybe heâs inspired by the 18th Party Congress coming up, âcause heâs dressed like every single one of those Standing Committee guys you see displayed in awkward lines in the official photographs.
I focus on the tie. If I stare long enough, the dots look like theyâre moving.
âYou know, your status here can change at any time,â he finally says.
Like before, he speaks to me in Mandarin. I donât know how much English he understands, if any. My spoken Chinese isnât bad, but Iâm not sure itâs up to this.
âWo zhidao.â I know.
I try to hide the shiver. Because he could just mean, Weâre revoking your visa and kicking you out of the country. Which would suck. But lately Iâve been thinking about leaving anyway. Itâs just getting too weird here.
But he could also mean, Weâre throwing your ass in jail. An official prison or a black jail, off the books.
And that whole prospect, I donât do so well with that.
âI can only tell you what I know,â I say. âI know Zhang Jianliâs email address. I already gave it to you.â
âBut you manage his art.â He smiles, baring his teeth. âHard to understand how you can do this without knowing where he is.â
Weâve been over this before.
âHe left me instructions. Itâs not so hard.â
âYou sell his art, then.â
âI sold some art,â I correct. We havenât sold a thing since February. When this whole âfun with the DSDâ game started.
âYou sell his work,â Pompadour Bureaucrat repeats. âThen how does he get paid?â
My heart thumps harder. This is a sensitive subject. âI just collect the money. He hasnât taken any yet.â
A frown. âBut this is a little strange. This is his money, after all. His work. He behaves . . . almost like a man who is no longer alive.â
Oh, shit.
I do not like where this is heading.
âAll I know is what he told me. What I told you . He wanted some time away from Beijing, so he could work. Get fresh ideas. Too many distractions here.â I risk a tiny smirk, âcause I just canât help it. âSee, he likes coffee. Heâs not so fond of tea.â
I stumble out of there in the late afternoon, into the yellow-grey haze of a hot May afternoon. Smog mingles with the dust of a construction site, where this huge jackhammer thing rises like an insect on steroids above temporary metal walls covered with photo murals of new, modern China: sleek high-speed trains, spaceship skyscrapers, and, to show proper respect to tradition, and tourism, the Temple of Heaven.
Iâm pretty sure itâs a subway theyâre building. Theyâre building them everywhere. I wish it were done, so I could ride down some long escalator, past ads for Lancôme and real estate and cell phones and socialist modernization, into some shiny new train that would whisk me away, underground, below all the traffic and noise, and Iâd emerge in my own neighborhood, safe at home, like magic.
Yeah, well, thatâs not going to happen.
I limp past a yellow Home Inn and signs for some sports complex left over from the â08 Olympics, and I can see a line of tall, straight trees in an empty field at the side of an expressway, maybe a ring road, but I donât know which one, because Iâve hardly ever been to Fengtai before, except for the Beijing West Railway Station, a place I hate thatâs hard to avoid: ugly Soviet mainframe built like a cheap brown suit topped with Chinese pagodas. Iâm a lot deeper into Fengtai than that, though, right at the edge where it turns into crumbling old villages and farmland.
A taxi, I think. I need to find a taxi.
Either that or a drink.
I buy a bottle of Nongfu Spring water at a newsstand and take a Percocet.
I need them, I tell myself. Itâs not like Iâm some addict who just wants to get high. Iâm in