wedged with some cushions, then tucked sheets over it all as best we could. Itâs not quite like a real bed, but the four of us can sleep there side by side. Itâs more crowded than the shelter in the garden was, but we canât sleep in that because the canvas of the bunks has rotted away in the damp. Morrisons are supposed to protect you from being crushed under the wreckage if the house gets blown up. I think itâs a good idea â much handier than having to rush out across the garden, though we do nip into the outside shelter during the day if we happen to be out of doors.
Dad hates the Morrison â he says it makes him feel as if heâs shut in a box. Thatâs rubbish, of course â itâs a steel table withopen sides, so itâs not dark or anything. But itâs less than waist-high to an adult, so you can only get in by crawling, so I suppose he feels a bit cramped.
Ian loves it, though. He spends quite a lot of time in there with his blanket and Bun. Heâs got a passion for doing jigsaws at the moment. Theyâre the wooden sort, with quite big bits. Heâs supposed to put them away before we go to bed, but he doesnât always manage it.
âFor goodnessâ sake, boy,â Dad said when he tucked him in one night, âthis bedâs like a timberyard.â
Ian laughed a lot. Heâs got a weird sense of humour. He kept saying, âTimberyard, timberyard,â as if it was a kind of poem.
I had a weird moment this evening. I was out in the garden, gathering plums that the wasps hadnât got at. Everything was quiet and the sun was going down behind the trees. I could hear Dad playing the piano. He always plays after tea, for hours sometimes. Iâve grown up with his music so I donât usually take much notice, but this time I heard it in a new way. It wasvery wistful and beautiful, something by Chopin I think, and it made me want to cry. Iâve never cried about the war, not even the time little Moira Blake was killed when their flat over the chemistâs shop was hit. I just thought,
No, I mustnât give in
. But standing in the garden with the evening smell of the grass and the slow, lovely music, I suddenly felt the pity of it all, and tears came.
Mrs Potterâs cat had kittens yesterday. I wanted to go and look at them, but Mum wouldnât let me. There were six, but Mr Potter said that was too many. He took four of them up to Hedgeâs cottage to be âdealt withâ. I know what that means. Hedge will drown them. I think thatâs really horrible. Poor little things. I hate Hedge.
Weâre back at school now. They sent a letter saying weâd lost so much time at the end of last term due to âenemy activityâ, we really had to get back to work.
Mrs Potterâs in the kitchen again. Sheâs always popping in. Mum gets a bit fed up with it sometimes.
They both look up as I come in, and their faces are grave. Thereâs something wrong.
âKatie,â Mum says, reaching out an arm for me. âSomething very sad has happened. You know Mr Freeman?â
I nod. Heâs a carpenter. He came here to put up some shelves for Dadâs books, and got a splinter in his thumb. Mum sat him down at the kitchen table and took it out for him with a needle.
âHe was killed yesterday, in that big explosion. He lived over on the estate. Thatâs where it fell.â
âOh, no!â I can see him so clearly, sitting at this table where Mrs Potter is now.
âSunday, you see,â says Mrs Potter. âHe was at home, playing football in the garden with his two little boys.â
âBilly and Martin,â I hear myself say. Billy is at my school. Martinâs too small to go to school yet.
Mrs Potter is rattling on. âThey heard a doodlebug coming and ran to their shelter, only Martin tripped and fell. Mr Freeman stopped to help him up.â She shakes her head. âIt was