purse banged against her side, and her long sweater flew out behind her. She cried when she saw us. She fell into the sand on her knees and took Jack and rocked him back and forth for a long time.
âIâm sorry, Mom,â I said, and then I took off running down the beach until I collapsed in the sand. Until I could breathe again. After a while, Sef came for me. His clothes were still wet. He handed me a smooth gray-blue skipping stone that fit in the palm of my hand. I never threw it. I kept it in my pocket.
âCome on, Cass,â he said. âItâs okay. Jackâs okay. He found a horseshoe crab. Come on. Iâll race you.â And we ran as fast as we could through the sand. It felt so good to breathe hard, to suck air in and to sweat out the fear. I knew what would have happened if Sef hadnât been there. Every morning since then, Sef and I had gone running.
When we got home, Jack held the horseshoe crab up by the tail for Dad. âI died,â he said. A tiny trickle of sand fell to the ground.
âYeah?â Dad popped a napoleon into his mouth. âAnd then you rose again?â
âAnd walked across the water,â Mom said triumphantly.
Dad poured them drinks. We never talked about it again.
Thatâs how we wereâwe didnât talk about things.
CHAPTER 4
BRING âEM ON
I WAS MAD at Sonia for not coming to Sefâs party, but the weekend before hadnât gone so well. Her parents had come over to watch the Patriots game. Even though they lived only two blocks away, they drove because of the freak storm that blew snowflakes the size of my hands. Mom watched out the window as the LeClaires backed their Volvo down our driveway. âTheyâre here!â she sang.
Sonia came in first, carrying a tray of beads and shaking the snow from her long blond hair. She looked so pretty and so together.
âHey,â she said to me.
âHey.â
âItâs crazy out there.â
âI know,â I said. âJackâs been howling because Mom wouldnât let him outside.â
âOnly Jack.â She laughed and started to spread her beads out on the table. Iâd told her Iâd help her string some necklaces for her new jewelry business.
Soniaâs father, Eric, draped his arm over Sefâs shoulders. A lawyer, he was slim and had clean-cut boyish looks and sandy slicked-back hair. âOne more week, Sef. Are you ready?â
âAs ready as Iâll ever be.â
âYouâre going to kick some ass over there.â
âThatâs the plan.â
âBring âem on!â
Susan shook her head at her husband as she set a platter of nachos on the coffee table. Like Sonia, Susan was Barbie-doll pretty. âYouâve got to think of something new to say,â she said.
âWhatâs he saying now?â Mom asked.
âNothing,â Dad said. âYou donât want to know.â
Sonia rolled her eyes at me.
âNice!â Eric shouted. âKiller catch.â
Everyone turned to the TV. Dad stayed in his leather chair. Mom sat on the couch between Eric and Susan on one half of the L couch, and on the other was Jack in his Tom Brady shirt and Sef.
âKick some ass! Bring âem on!â Jack shouted.
âJack,â Mom asked, âwhereâd you hear that?â
Jack chanted louder and louder, âKick some ass! Bring âem on!â Then he jumped up and pulled down his underwear and sweatpants.
âFor Godâs sake, Jack,â Mom said.
Mom pulled Jackâs pants up while Eric roared laughing. âWell, that gets the afternoon off with a bang! Itâs going to be hard for Tom Brady to top this.â
âLetâs go to your room,â Sonia said. She looked disgusted.
Upstairs, Sonia held out the oblong glass beads strung in a two-brown, one-pink pattern. âThat was really gross,â she said.
âJack?â I asked.