window, falling from the grizzled sky. The sunlight and warmth were further away than ever, and slowly I felt the darkness slide closer.
“Is she ever coming back?” Daniel whispered.
Callon replied with a deep sigh.
“I feel so lost, Callon,” Daniel said. “I wish…”
“So do I,” Callon said. “So do I.”
Time must have passed, but I wasn’t following . I spent them in a chair by the fireplace or in bed, wherever I was led. Food came and went, and I ate only what was needed. Why I still wanted to stay alive I didn’t understand, but something inside wouldn’t allow me to give up yet. Was it my rage, unwilling to forgive being dealt this awful hand, or was it something more? A nagging feeling haunted me that maybe this was just a dream, that I’d suddenly wake up and realize Colt hadn’t died. Or was it that deep down I knew Colt would have wanted me to live? My parents would’ve told me to fight for what I believed in… but what I believed in was gone.
I’d never had a choice from the beginning. I’d been fooled into believing I could be with Colt, could choose the one I wanted to be with . Could choose the one I loved.
They’d all played a part in this: destiny, Callon, and Colt. They’d each given me false hope. It was supposed to be this way , Callon had said. We were always meant to be together . But if we were always meant to be, then why did Colt have to work his way into my heart as well?
Callon had the rings, and he hadn’t hesitated to use them to his advantage just like Marcus. But Colt, he’d had my friendship. From the start he’d worked on me to make me fall in love with him. It had felt natural, regardless of the fact that he was my protector. With Callon I’d been forced into the situation. Yet while it had been awkward to begin with, I’d grown to love him, too.
Really , when it all came down to it, I had no choice of my own. Everything had been set out, and I was forced to confront destiny. No matter how I’d tried, it had won in the end.
I had to follow its plan.
“Happy Birthday, Cheyenne.”
Daniel’s soft voice caused me to look up. I’d been lying on the bed, as I often did since coming to Ireland. Everything had lumped together in a haze, and I hadn’t realized what day it was. I glanced towards him, and spotted a small pink cupcake on a crisp white plate set before me, a single candle burning.
My light .
“I’m here, Cheyenne,” Colt whispered. “I said I’d always be your light. I promised never to leave you. Remember?” His fingers brushed the stray hairs from my eyes, and I grasped for his hand, pulling it to my chest.
A carefree smile broke over his lips. “You remember when I took you for a hike?”
I nodded.
“I led you to a mountain meadow.”
“I remember,” I whispered as my mind drifted towards that memory.
It was warm, the perspiration running down my brow as I climbed the hill. Colt stood waiting, his playful eyes meeting mine.
“Hurry up,” he called out.
“What’s the rush?” I asked , knowing he was anxious to show me his surprise. I suddenly stopped and plopped down on a tree stump just to be stubborn. “I’m exhausted.”
He stalked towards me , and I giggled.
“Seriously, Cheyenne, you can do better than that.” He rolled his eyes and grasped my hand.
“You’re so pushy,” I laughed.
We paused at the top of the ridge between the trees, and I became still. He’d brought me to a field, where thousands of bright yellow wildflowers with patches of red poppies danced in the breeze. Colt pulled me forward and wrapped his arms around.
“Look, your own personal patch of sunshine.” He grew silent, more thoughtful. “ I didn’t think I’d ever find anything as close to heaven as this.” He looked at me, and I knew he wasn’t talking about the flowers.
“You made me a crown out of flowers,” I said.
“I did. I told you you’d always be my princess.”
I blinked away the