said. Then he whispered. “While I slept with
you,”
“ You didn’t tell her,did you?”
“ No,” He says quickly. “Of course not, I would never tell anyone what
Happened between us,”
“ Is that why you have been distant?”
“ I haven’t been distant,” He said. Persisting.
I look at him with a raised eye brow. “This is the first time you have
even talked to me, or touched me since that night,” I reminded him.
“ Not true,”
“ Yes true,” I say back.
“ It’s been at least three weeks, next week will be four,”
“ I’m sorry,”
He then says.
I let silent come between us, wanting to reassure him how much of a
jerk he was being towards me. We just stare at each other, both of us
completely unsure of what to do now.
“ How can I make it up to you?” He asks.
“ You can’t,” I firmly say.
His eyes looked at me confused. “Why not?”
“ Because, I don’t want you to make it up to me for being a Jerk
Michael, what I want you to do is make up for not spending time with
Me,”
“ It wasn’t my idea to stay away from each other after we had sex if you
don’t remember,”
This was true, but I was hoping he would have fought it, but I was
wrong.
“ So its my fault?”
“ No,” He now stood up again. “Its not your fault, its Our fault,”
I looked at him a little appalled. “Our Fault? I think you mean your
fault,”
“ You’re the one who wanted me to be distant from you when my dad
and your mom are around, and news flash Grace, that’s all the time
since they have been back from my aunt’s house,”
This was true again, but even when we were in town together to go
shopping for groceries, he still could have been a little closer to me.
“ Fine,” I say. Starting to get annoyed arguing about something stupid.
“ How about this, it’s both of our faults, and we stop it at that,”
“ Fine,”
Fine, seemed to be the word we used the most, not just between me
and Michael, but my mom and Gary as well.
___
Night had arrived.
Mom and Gary were asleep, and I had been in the living room trying to
Figure out what I was going to do with myself, I was almost done with
Community college and I had to apply for grad school. I sat on the
couch with my laptop on my lap, looking at all the different listings of
schools.
Now that mom was happy and had a husband, I didn’t have to worry
about her as much, because I knew that she would be taken care of,
however, Michael was my other issue.
Would I be able to leave him, going to another state and moving on
with my life, not being able to think about what we once were…
If we were anything at all.
I didn’t know anymore.
Everything in my life was falling apart I felt at the very seam of it all.
Chapter Thirteen
Life was too short to worry about anything, however I still worried.
Where was my life going? Where was Michael’s life going?
I didn’t really know, Michael didn’t go to school, but he graduated
high school the same year I did.
Why was I worrying about his future?
Let’s face it, I’m falling in love with my step brother
Who could possibly just always be that – a step brother.
“ Grace,” I heard my mom call out as she turned on the light, I looked
Over my shoulder and closed my laptop. “It’s three in the morning,
what are you doing up?”
“ Just thinking,” I said. Which was the truth, mother walked over to me
And wrapped her arms around me from behind the couch.
“ Well you might hurt your brain if you think too much love,”
“ I think I’m already there,” I say. “Considering I have a migraine
coming on,”
“ Did