better.â
âGemma Teague!â My whisper came out sharp between clenched teeth. âThem boys is just tryinâ to get somethinâ more out of life.â
âOh, theyâll get it, all right. Theyâll get it at the end of a gun barrel . . . or a rope.â
âAnd what about Doc Pritchett? Youâre planninâ on workinâ for that colored doc, and you know good and well folks in this town donât take kindly to what they see as a colored man goinâ above his proper station.â
She didnât look at me, so I knew I had her. âThatâs different.â
âAinât different nohow.â
Gemma couldnât say much back. She couldnât argue with me once I made it personal.
I stood up and remembered why I was out here waiting on the porch in the first place, then went back to pacing the whitewashed floorboards just like Momma always does when sheâs anxious. It didnât escape my notice how much I became like her as I grew older, but Lord knows I didnât model her in all ways, and Gemma was first to say it.
âI swear youâre the edgiest woman I ever done seen. Why canât you be more calm and peaceful like your momma?â She glared at me from her post on the rocker. âYou got to do that? Youâre makinâ the porch shake.â
I didnât pause or reply. I just dug my eyes into hers as I paced in her direction, then spun around and headed back, nearly tripping over Duke, our ages-old basset hound. Years earlier, he would have scurried under the porch to escape my worrisome mood, but now it was all he could do to lift his eyes and glance at me.
âThat dog may as well be nailed to the floor.â I looked down the road both ways. âYou sure there werenât any calls?â
âWouldâve told you if there were.â She had her needlepoint in her hands, her face so close to it I was surprised she wasnât cross-eyed. âYou ainât gone nowhere all day, anyhow. Think you wouldâve heard if the phone rang.â
I studied her face with squinty eyes, hands balled up on my hips. âYou need spectacles. You canât see a thing two feet in front of your face.â
Gemma rubbed the space between her eyes, though I guessed it was more in exasperation than eye fatigue. âYou ainât got to boss me, Jessilyn. Theyâre my eyes. IÂ ought to know when they need fixinâ.â
âYou know full well they need fixinâ; I ainât arguinâ that. Itâs just you wonât admit to it. You worried about lookinâ funny around Tal Pritchett?â
âI ainât so vain as that, Jessie.â
I backed away from the fiery stare, worried she might prick me with her needle. âThen youâre worried about money.â I tapped my toe waiting for her to answer, but she ignored me and went back to her needlepoint. âIâm full aware why a colored doctor wonât be able to pay much, but I already told you Iâd help buy you some spectacles. IÂ been workinâ for Miss Cleta more and more, and sheâs as generous as the day is long. I got me more than I need.â
Her pointed focus on that needlework got under my skin, and after a good minute of silence broken only by the squeak of the rocker, my nerves were so raw my palms itched. But I was determined to play at nonchalance.
âFine, then. Let yourself go blind. Next thing you know, youâll be sewinâ your fingers together with that there needle. I reckon youâll think twice then.â
A tuneful whistle off in the distance broke through our quarrel, and I nearly jumped out of my new shoes. IÂ tipped a finger under Gemmaâs chin and made her look at me. âHow do I look? Is my hair still put up nice?â I pulled my skirt out by the sides and inspected it. âMy dress wrinkled?â
Gemma sighed and set her needlework on the table beside her.