should write a lot of them. Youâre really good. When youâre done, you need to practice singing each one.â Then he went and got Dadâs old tape recorder out of the top of my closet. Honestly, I donât even think it works, but they didnât know that. He handed it to them. âWhen youâre done practicing, record your songs on this. Then weâll see if we can find someone to turn them into a real album.â
May started jumping up and down. âAre we going to be famous?â she asked Billy.
âAre we going to be famous?â repeated June.
Billy nodded his head slightly like he thought it was a definite possibility.
âWeâre going to be famous!â they were both screaming and jumping. Before I knew it, May and June took the paper and the pens and the tape recorder, and they were gone. As loud as it had been in my room only moments before, suddenly it was completely quiet.
âYouâre amazing,â I said. I did this little bow like I was worshipping Billy. But when I came back up, something happened that was even more amazing than Billy getting my sisters to go away.
Billy caught my hands like it was possible I might fall over and he wanted to make sure I didnât. I gave him a look like I wasnât going to fall over, but he didnât let go of my hands. Then he leaned over and kissed me.
ON THE LIPS!
He kissed me just for a few seconds and in a light, soft way, like I was a fragile doll that might break if he pressed too hard, but he definitely kissed me. It wasnât like the toe-touching where I wasnât sure if he knew our toes had touched or not. Our lips definitely touched, and we both knew they did.
I didnât move. I wasnât sure what to do. Then, almost as soon as Billy started kissing me, he stopped, and looked at me. âIâve wanted to do that for a long time,â was all he said.
I looked at Billy. I wasnât sure what to say. I was confused. First, the toe-touching. I thought I felt something, but it seemed like Billy didnât, so I pretended I didnât. Then he practically stopped talking to me, and then he said he wanted to come over and help me download music. It seemed like everything was back to normal, and then he kissed me. Part of me wanted to ask him why he kissed me and part of me just wanted him to kiss me again. All my thoughts were swirled together in my brain.
Billy and I stood there for a few seconds, looking at each other. Then, the next thing I knew, May and June barged into my room and our moment ended. Billy cleared his throat. âIs your album done?â he asked them.
âNot yet,â said May. âYour mom called and said you have to go home for dinner. Now!â
âNow!â repeated June.
They had their hands on their hips like they were the dinner police, and it appeared they werenât going anywhere until Billy left. So he gave me a smile and walked out, but it was kind of a lopsided smile like he wasnât sure about what just happened.
And the truth is that Iâm not sure about it either. It was my first kiss and it was with Billy. It sounds weird even saying it, but it was weird in a good way.
This morning, the only thing my brain was thinking about was what songs I was going to download on my phone. Now, my brain is thinking about so many different things.
Whatâs it going to be like between Billy and me now that weâve kissed? Are we still friends? Are we more than friends? Whatâs going to happen when we go to camp?
Should I tell Brynn what happened? I canât NOT tell Brynn what happened. I tell Brynn everything. And if Billy and I become more than just friends, Brynn will know anyway. But whatâs Brynn going to say? She always gets excited about stuff she calls ânewsworthy,â but Iâm not sure sheâs going to be excited about this.
The thing is ⦠Billy and Brynn and I have always been the Three