were three of âem. Three against one ainât very good odds.â
âYeah, but I can tell by lookinâ at you . . . You still got the bark on you, boy. Iâm bettinâ my ranch . . . you can do it.â He laughed again. âOf course . . . Iâm losinâ one way or the other . . . ainât I?â
To this day, I donât know what made me do it. Maybe I just wanted to ease his way from this world into the next. But I said, âAll right, Mr. Tillotson, Iâll do it. Iâll go after those rustlers. Canât promise you Iâll kill all of them, but Iâll do my damnedest.â
âThatâs all . . . anybody can ask of a man. You got paper and . . . a pencil?â
âYeah.â
âGet it. Write out a bill of sale . . . Iâll sign it. But gimme . . . another drink first.â
I did that, then took out a book Iâd bought in San Antonio. Iâd picked it up because it was a story about a cowboy named Cassidy who had a bum leg, and that struck me as funny. The book had a blank page or two in the back, so I tore one of them out, flattened it on the cover, and after pausing to build up the fire a little and make it brighter, I used a stub of a pencil to scrawl a bill of sale transferring ownership of the Fishhook Ranch from Abner Tillotson to . . .
Until that moment I hadnât thought about what name I was going to put down. I had gone by several different names in my life. Sometimes it came in handy for a man in my line of work to be somebody else. Iâd used the name Jim before, and to be honest I just plucked Strickland out of thin air. I didnât recall ever knowing anybody by that name.
So I wrote down âJim Strickland,â and then I read what Iâd written to Abner. He managed a weak nod and said, âThatâll be fine. Youâre a good man . . . Jim.â
I donât know if he just ran out of breath before he said the name, or if he was telling me in his own way that he knew it wasnât real and didnât care.
He held out his hand and said, âGimme the pencil. Afraid Iâm gonna get blood on it.â
âDonât worry about that,â I told him.
He took the pencil. I held the book where he could sign his name on the page. His hand was shaking some, but I could read his signature. I didnât think anybody would dispute the bill of sale, since he didnât have any family, and anyway I wasnât sure I would ever use it. While the idea of settling down held some appeal, I didnât know if I could do it. Iâd been on the drift for a long time.
When he was finished his hand fell back in his lap. He said, âYou better . . . get after âem now. They got a shack . . . couple miles north of here. Ainât much more than a lean-to . . . built against a little rise. Donât trust âem . . . theyâre tricky bastards. I never shouldâve . . . giveâ âem any warninâ . . . Shouldâve just started shootinâ first myself. You might want to . . . bear that in mind.â
âI sure will, Abner,â I told him. âYou better get some rest now, hear?â
âYou think you could . . . see your way clear to leavinâ that flask with me . . . while you go after those skunks?â
âSure, I can do that.â I pressed the silver flask into the hand that had held the pencil. He had dropped it on the ground beside him.
âMuch . . . obliged.â
He seemed to be having trouble keeping his eyes open now. His head rested against the dirt wall behind him. His chest still rose and fell, but slow, slow.
I knew if I piddled around a little before riding out after the Daughtrys, Abner would be dead and I could forget the whole thing and go find the ranch house. His horse was long gone, doubtless having run off after the shooting, but I could pack his body in on my extra animal. I could even toss that bill of sale into the fire and