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tae be an orgy but there wis a couple there, merriet and all, and they wouldnae even be sleepin in the same room. Ah thought that wis a bit weird.
    ‘Any other questions?’ asks Vishana. Naebdy says anythin. He smiles. ‘All we ask of you this weekend, is that you stay mindful. Pay attention.’
    Surely that couldnae be too difficult, no for a weekend.
       
    The first meditation session started at nine o’clock that night. The meditation room wis separate fae the main part of the buildin, a big shed wi high windaes and cushions and blankets on the flair just like the wan in the centre. At the far end wis a statue of the Buddha, sittin in the lotus position wi his eyes shut.
    We filed in, efter takin aff wer shoes in the cloakroom, and took up wer places. Ah thought ah wis gettin a loat better wi this sittin cross-legged but at the Centre it was only fur twenty minutes at a time. And ah don’t know if it wis bein tired efter a day’s work, or the drivin or whit, but ah couldnae sit still. Vishana talked us through the mindfulness a breathin meditation but ah couldnae settle. Ah kept fidgetin, and every time ah made the slightest wee movement ah felt as if everybuddy could hear it, cos it wis dead quiet except fur some guy ower tae ma right somewhere who sounded as if he wis on a life-support system.
    And as fur ma mind. Mindfulness aye, but no the way Vishana meant. Ma mind wis full aw right – thoughts fleein aboot lik motors on a racin track. Vroom, vroom, wan efter anither. And the main wan that kept comin up wis, whit the fuck are you daein here? Ah couldnae stop thinkin aboot the look on Liz’s face when ah went oot this mornin.
    ‘See you on Sunday night, hen.’
    ‘So you’re gaun, are you?’
    ‘Ah’ve said …’
    ‘Aye, ah know. Well, have a nice time.’
    Ah’d went tae kiss her but she turnt her face away and that wis whit kept comin back tae me as ah tried tae focus on ma breathin. That picture ae her staundin in the kitchen, butterin toast, wi her back tae me and just the line of her neck, tense, held in. If she’d only shouted at me, chucked the toast at me, that’d have been OK; ah can haundle that, blow up, blow doon, but ah hate this no sayin.
    Then the next thing ah know, the meditation’s ower and we’re back in the big room. Ah thought we’d sit roond the fire, get tae know each ither a bit but Vishana mair or less tells us tae get tae wer beds.
    ‘Early start tomorrow morning. Meditation at six a.m. in the prayer room. See you all there.’
    Turnt oot ah wis sharin wi the wee guy wi the earrings and another tall, skinny bloke wi straggly grey hair tied back in a pony tail. Ex-hippy lookin. The room had three mattresses on the flair and ah chucked ma sleepin bag and rucksack on the wan unner the windae.
    ‘Ah’m Jimmy McKenna,’ ah says, stickin oot ma haund. The tall guy takes it and gies it a squeeze.
    ‘Jed,’ he says. ‘Glad to meet you.’ Sounded a bit American.
    ‘Gary,’ says the young guy, and turns his back, takin stuff oot his rucksack.
    ‘Have yous been here afore, then?’
    ‘I’ve been a few times, yeah,’ says Jed. ‘I go to other workshops too, though, not just Buddhist ones, go round them all, get a taste of everything, you know.’
    ‘Aye, right enough,’ ah says. ‘You don’t need tae just support the wan team. Whit aboot you, pal?’
    Gary’s footerin aboot, pittin a wee widden statue of the Buddha on tae the shelf above his mattress. He doesnae turn roond.
    ‘Ah’ve been coming for the past three years.’
    ‘You must be pure brilliant at this meditation lark then. God, that wis heavy gaun the night. Ma mind wis birlin.’
    ‘Some days it’s like that,’ says Jed. ‘Best to accept it.’
    ‘Suppose so. It wis hard gaun at first, never thought ah’d get the hang ae it. It’s just that ah thought ah wis gettin better, know?’
    Jed laughs. ‘That’s fatal.’
    Ah take oot a hauf bottle a Bell’s fae ma rucksack. ‘Fancy a nip,