âThir teen, Mack.â
Mackey flips a page, says, âHrmp.â
He obviously doesnât care, but I keep goingâbecause it feels good to let it out. I say, âThese people are idiots.â Then I feel bad. âI mean, donât they know Iâm too old to be a flower girl?â
Mackey stops reading and tries some English. âI have to wear a tux,â he says.
I say, âTogas and penguin suits donât go together.â
He shrugs, starts to read againâhis way of telling me the conversation is over.
âSo,â I say. âWhat are we going to do about this?â
Silence.
â Mack, â I say.
âHunh.â
âI think Birdieâs judgment is seriously impaired.â
Finally, Mackey closes his book and looks at me. âMaybe heâs sick of being alone. Donât you want him to have someone?â
âHe has us,â I say.
âItâs not the same thing.â
I stare at the giant zits on Mackeyâs nose. Theyâre red and pussyâgross. He washes his face and uses that Clear-Skin stuff every night, but nothing works. Who does Mackey have to hang out with? The Lord of the Rings. Spock. He doesnât have a Jules. The only person he ever brought home was Willy Grimes, who wore high-waters and ended up stealing most of Mackeyâs action figures.
Sometimes I look at my brother and think, Ouch.
âWell,â I say now. âLetâs just hope Birdie knows what heâs doing.â
Mackey grunts. His eyes are on the book.
âOkay.â I walk backward, toward the door. âI guess Iâll be going, then. Off to put on some Underoos and play with my Hello Kitty dolls. You know. Thirteen-year-old stuff.â
âGngh,â Mackey says. Which I guess means good-bye on his planet.
I have never tried talking to my mother from a bathroom before, lying fully clothed in a peach-colored tub, in the middle of the day. But thereâs a first time for everything.
Stella? Itâs me, Evyn. The oldest living flower girl. Did you see the dress? Barforama.
Stella smiles. Itâs not so bad.
Yes it is. Probably they will put me at the kidsâ table, too, with butter shaped like Mickey Mouse ears. And later, we will do the hokey pokey. I wish you were here to talk to Birdie for me, because I bet he would listen to you. âHoney,â you could say. âEvynâs a teenager now. Letâs not humiliate her at the wedding.â But I guess if you were here, he wouldnât be getting married, would he?
Stella laughs. I hope not!
I wish you were here.
Oh, honey, she says. Me, too.
CHAPTER SIX
Itâs the first day of school. I am wearing an econo-sized backpack, underwear that itches, and a lampshade.
Everyone else on the bus is wearing a lampshade, too, but that doesnât make me feel better. First, I am not a kilt person, and even if I were, I would not choose green-and-yellow plaid that bells out at the knees. However, at the March School for Girls, you donât get a choice.
âThe dreaded lampshade,â one of the twins said to me this morning, shuddering. âI wore that thing for eight years.â She had on jeans, a silver spangle top, and beat-up cowboy boots.
And the other one said, âOh, God. The lampshade.â She said this from the comfort of her suede pants, plum-colored sweater, and giant hoop earrings. âYouâll want to burn that thing in a week.â
I just nodded. There was nothing to say except, Where do you keep the lighter fluid?
At breakfast, only two people looked as bad as me: Ajax, in a green-and-yellow-plaid blazer with Thorne School for Boys emblazoned on the pocket, and Phoebe, wearing a mini version of my outfit.
âIâm in the lower-school building,â she told me. âItâs yellow. Youâre in the middle-school building. Itâs green.â
âOh,â I said. âUh-huh.â
Eleni plopped some