nose twitching rapidly. âYou think youâre smart, donât you?â
âNo, sir.â
âThe hell you donât. Memorizing the whole bible in forty minutes.â
Murmurs break out at the tables around us, only to be extinguished by harsh stares from âmothersâ and âfathers.â
âYou got some kind of photographic memory? Naw, youâre too stupid-looking.â Joe grins as if he finds this amusing. âYou just got lucky on the test, right?â
âUh, yes, sir.â
âYes, sir, no, sir, yes, sir, no, sir. You think you can hide behind that âsirâ crap like itâs some kind of protective shield? Forget it, punk. Anyone can see whatâs really going on. You think weâre stupid, right? Well, that crap doesnât cut it here, understand?â
âYes, sir.â
Crap,
it appears, is a catchword for all undesirable behavior at Lake Harmony.
âYeah, you ⦠ah-choo!â Joe suddenly sneezes.
âBless you, sir.â
Joe whips out a disgusting, yellowed handkerchief and blows his nose. âDamn allergies.â With watery, red-rimmed eyes he gives me a menacing look. âDidyou say âbless youâ? What are you, my priest?â
I donât realize that he actually wants me to answer.
âAnswer me, punk.â
âNo, sir, Iâm not your priest.â
âIs that the way people talk where you come from? Please, and thank you, and bless you?â
âYes, sir.â
âEveryoneâs all nice and civilized?â
âOnly on the surface, sir.â
My âfatherâ scowls slightly, as if not certain what to make of this answer. âWhat does that mean?â
âIt means that where I come from people pretend to act nice and civilized, sir. But theyâll stab you in the back just the same.â
Joeâs eyebrows dip slightly. âSo tell me something, Garrett Durrellâhow in the world did you wind up here?â
âI⦠I donât know how to answer that, sir.â
âWhy not? Everybody else in this room knows why theyâre here.â Joe turns to our table. âJon, tell Garrett why youâre here.â
âYes, sir.â Jon, a thin blond kid with blinking eyes, pops out of his seat. He has a slight tremor, like a small animal perpetually in fear of larger prey. âI was disrespectful to my mom,â he says eagerly. âI sold drugs and stole bikes and skipped school.â
âThank you, Jon.â
Jon sits obediently. Joe looks up at me. âTell us why youâre here, Garrett?â
âI suppose I was disrespectful, too ⦠sir.â
âAnd
how
do you
suppose
you were disrespectful?â
âI didnât do what my parents wanted me to do, sir.â
âAnd what did they want you to do?â
My thoughts are racing like speed chess. What move can I make? What answer can I give? He canât really expect me to talk about this in front of all these people.
âIâll be glad to tell you in private, sir.â
Around the room murmurs sprout and vanish like puffs of smoke from firecrackers. Joe snorts with contempt. âI have news for you, Garrett. There is no âprivateâ here. No one gets through this program with their pride intact, understand? Your pride goes with the rest of the crap. We tear you down, then build you back the way you should be. And we start with you telling
all
of us why youâre here.â
âSir, Iâm sure that, given a little more time, I can find a way to explain it.â
Joeâs face reddens, and he glares so fiercely, I can see the pulse in his forehead. I wish I knew what heâs so pissed off about. âYou donât get it, do you?â he snarls. âThis is some kind of game with you. You think all you got to do is
pretend
to cooperate and youâll be out of here?â
âNo, sir.â
âOh
yes,
sir. I see it clear as