magalog king of Manhattan, a man on the cutting edge of hybrid publications that combinedelements of a magazine and a catalogue. Garrison knew how to finely doctor the editorial mix to control the message and create a brand world. His clients included top retailers and designers like Bergdorf Goodman, Neiman Marcus, Tory Burch, Kate Spade, and Donatella Versace.
Garrison was not quite handsome, not quite in shape, but quite old enough to be Emmaâs father. Still, there was a sexinessabout him, a worldly, baby-Iâve-lived-a-full-life attitude that captivated her. He had approached her on the street with a simple, âYouâre beautiful. Have dinner with me tonight.â
It became a distraction that saved her from the daily despairof reading about Dean Paul and Tillyâs newborn child, whom they had christened Cantaloupe. Apparently, they suffered from the Chronic Stupid Name Syndrome that afflicted so many other celebrities. There was Gwyneth Paltrowâs Apple, Claudia Schifferâs Casper,Toni Braxtonâs Denim, John MellencampâsSpeck Wildhorse, Nicolas Cageâs Kal-el, and former Spice Girl Geri Halliwellâs Bluebell Madonna to name only a few. And now there was Cantaloupe Lockhart.
Just having Garrison around to occasionally fawn over her provided enough emotional succor to persevere through the baby crisis. Suddenly, before Emma even fully realized it, she found herself involved in another relationship. Dean Paulâs heat had been replaced by Garrisonâs comfort. It was hardly perfect.But it was not the worst thing in the world, either.
Emma thought this as she closed the door to the bathroomand turned on the faucet at the sink to drown out the sound of her voice. âDelilah, what the fuck am I doing?â
âI assume youâre referring to your life in general,â Delilah answered glibly. âThis is why I donât recommend sex with old men. It makes a girl too existential.â
Emma slumped down onto the edge of the bathtub. âI can predict the rest of my day. As soon as I hang up with you, Iâm going to rush out and buy the Post . Then Iâm going to stare at Dean Paul and that bitch and that perfect baby and be twisted up in knots for the rest of the day.â
âSo do something different,â Delilah reasoned.
âIâm not sure that I want to,â Emma said quietly, reflectingon how much power Dean Paul still seemed to have over her life. Once upon a time, she had been an unstoppable forceâa high school overachiever, a double degree earner at the University of Miami, a fast riser in the broadcast journalismranks. And now she had become this simpering girl who could not move past a busted love affair.
The breakup predicated almost everything that she did. Her decision to go into therapy, her reliance on antidepressants, her zombielike openness to an affair with Garrison, even her career shift from a serious journalist on Today in New York to a lightweight chatterbox on The Beehive . In some way, all of it stemmed from Dean Paul.
âEmma, you have to snap out of this,â Delilah said, her voice teeming with equal parts shoulder to cry on and tough love advocacy. âHeâs not worth it.â
âI know,â Emma moaned, frustrated by her unwillingness to move forward. God, she was getting on her own nerves.
âYou need a hot guy to give you a little amnesia. Someone sexier and more famous than Dean Paul.What about Matthew McConaughey?â
Emma cracked a smile. âDo you have his number?â
Delilah sighed. âNo, but even if I did, I wouldnât give it to you. Heâs my fantasy.â
âFine,â Emma sniffed. âJust donât expect me to share Patrick Dempsey.â
âOh, you bitch. I forgot about him. Letâs trade.â
âNever,â Emma teased.
âSo have you checked on Garrison since you bumped uglies?â Delilah asked. âIs he still