night.”
Angie gathered up the boys’ coats and said, “Let’s change the subject. How is Brock?”
Kate helped the little boy she held into his winter clothing. “Good. I stayed at his place last night.”
“I bet you’re still having amazing sex, aren’t you? God, I miss those days.”
Kate blushed again. She followed Angie down the stairs and into the garage, where they secured the boys in a double stroller. They continued their talk once they were out walking in the brisk morning air.
They started up a steep hill, side by side. With her long brown hair swaying back and forth in its ponytail, Angie said, “I know you don’t normally talk about stuff like this, but I have to know—is it as good as I remember?”
Although she and Angie had only been friends for a couple of months, Kate couldn’t imagine life without her. Angie didn’t hold back what she thought. She told it as she saw it, and that kind of honesty was refreshing to Kate. She trusted Angie more than she trusted friends she’d had for years. Friends she had left behind when she moved home. Friends who hadn’t bothered to call to see how she was doing. People who, perhaps, had never actually been her friends at all. “It’s amazing.”
“I probably should take you up on the date-night offer, but if it ended up being disappointing, I think I would just cry. Is that my hormones? I mean, I love my husband, but I don’t feel sexy at all. I’m a mother. I don’t know if I have any desire left in me. That’s not good, is it?”
“I’m sure it will come back.”
“I just worry. Watching you with Brock makes me feel like I’ve lost a part of myself. How do I find my way back to that?”
“Have you tried toys?”
“Toys? You mean like sex toys? I don’t have of any those. Do you?”
Kate kept her eyes focused straight ahead. “I do. My ex-husband was, let’s just say . . . selfish in bed. When I first got divorced I was so angry. I wasn’t sure I had ever enjoyed sex and thought I’d never want it again. I joked about wanting it, but I wasn’t serious. A friend introduced me to toys. I’m not saying they’re for everyone but, if you’re looking for a way to heat things up with your husband, they can be fun.”
Angie stopped and gave Kate a long look. “You’re spicier than you let on.”
Kate gave her friend a wide, unabashed smile. “You have no idea.”
Angie started walking again, and Kate fell into step beside her. They walked in comfortable silence for a few minutes, then Angie said, “I saw you drive by with your car packed with boxes. Does that mean you’ve cleaned out your mom’s room?”
“Mostly, but there’s still a lot to do. I’m giving myself until summer to decide what to do with the house.”
“You and Brock seem pretty serious. Maybe you’ll end up getting a place together.”
Kate tripped over an uneven part of the sidewalk, then said, “Maybe. Brock told me he loved me last night.”
“That’s awesome! Congratulations. Not that anyone would be surprised.”
“I didn’t say it back.”
“Oh, shit.”
“I know. It was really awful. I just froze. I thought I loved my husband, but I never felt for him anything close to what I feel for Brock. Brock makes me happy. Why couldn’t I tell him I love him?”
“Cut yourself some slack, Kate. You haven’t been divorced that long. Brock has to understand that.”
“I hope so. I’m all jumbled up inside these days. Sometimes I’m happy, then I’m angry. I’m scared to rush into something and be wrong a second time. I’m so confused.”
“Give yourself some time. Brock doesn’t look like he’s going anywhere.”
Kate nodded, feeling a hundred times better now that she’d gotten last night’s worries out of her head. “Thank you, Angie. You don’t know what it means to me to have someone I can talk to.”
Angie waved it off and kept her workout-paced walk going. “That’s what friends are for.” After a quiet moment,