Avoiding Commitment Read Online Free

defensive.
    “Alexa, Alexa,” she scolded, “do you not remember yourself after that boy left?”
    Lexi did remember. She could still feel it
every time she thought about him. When she stumbled across a
picture of them together or passed a particularly cozy looking
coffee shop, she remembered it all like it was yesterday. Only in
the past six months had a numbness started to take over that
feeling. Sometimes it still hit her fresh nearly two years later.
He was capable of eliciting such emotional and physiological
responses to this day, even though they had never officially been
together. She was amazed she had turned him down over the phone
after no contact for that long. If he had called for anything else, she was certain she would have crumbled.
    “Yeah, I remember,” Lexi said softly.
    “Well, then, why would you bring him up?”
Chyna demanded.
    “He called me,” she said brushing her hair
back several more times before meeting Chyna’s disapproving
eyes.
    “And?” Chyna asked with a look of firm
protectiveness taking over her features.
    Lexi sighed, and then quickly gave Chyna the
run down on the mess Jack had gotten himself into, and what he had
requested of her. She forced all the words out in quick procession,
not allowing Chyna to get in one word edge wise. When she finished,
she breathed out heavily and looked up to find Chyna staring at her
curiously. Somewhere throughout her story, Chyna’s features had
changed, softened. Lexi wasn’t quite sure what it meant. “So yeah,
that was my morning. Sounds great, doesn’t it?”
    “You turned him down?” she asked clearly
surprised. After everything she had been through with Jack, her
feelings for him were unrivaled.
    “Yeah, I did. Aren’t you proud?”
    “I think you should do it,” she stated
simply.
    “What?” Lexi asked bursting from her
comfortable lying position on the bed. “This morning is just nuts.
Jack calls, and then you, of all people, tell me that I should go
visit him and meet his fiancé?”
    “Fiancé-to-be,” Chyna quipped letting a
naughty smirk creep onto her face.
    “Whatever! Just explain this to me. Why
should I go see him? Nothing good ever comes out of me being around
him. I know this and you know this. The whole world should know
this. Give me one good reason I should go see him.” Chyna couldn’t
be serious! After all, Lexi had been so proud of herself for
turning him down for once in her life.
    “Closure.”
    “I don’t need closure,” Lexi stated
stubbornly.
    “Come on. Honestly, Alexa. I’m not sure you
have ever gotten over this guy. I’ve tried to get you into a
relationship, and you’ve dated a few of the people I’ve thrown your
way, but it was never anything substantial. You need to move on,
but how can you do that when you’re still hung up on a guy you
haven’t heard from in two years? Oh wait, you can’t!” she exclaimed
cocking her head to the side to really examine Lexi. “Now you’ve
been through some rough times, and honestly you’ve been a bit of a
depressive. I get it. I’ve been there too, and I understand. Maybe
not with a guy, but my parents and I have all those issues. You
need to go to Atlanta, meet this girl, tell her exactly how much of
a scumbag Jack truly is, and then get the hell out of there!”
    Lexi hesitated and then nodded seeing her
logic. “Maybe you’re right.”
    “No, I know I’m right,” Chyna said hopping
off the bed and moseying into her walk-in closet as if that ended
the discussion.
    Lexi stayed seated considering Chyna’s
argument. The girl had a point. After everything she had gone
through with Jack, maybe this was exactly what she needed, even if
it wasn’t necessarily what she wanted. Still undecided, Lexi joined
Chyna in her closet. As Chyna chose something to wear, Lexi
remained lost in her thoughts. She knew that Chyna’s statements
made sense, but how could she ever face Jack? Once Lexi had
realized who was on the line, she had nearly