Iâm here . . . I wanted to talk to you about something.â
âThatâs funny, Iâve actuallyâIâve been wanting to talk to you about something too.â
âOh? Great! Uh, you go first.â
His mother sighed. âYou remember Ellen Klein? Your Hebrew school teacher?â
âHow could I forget?â Simon said wryly. Mrs. Klein had been the bane of his existence from second grade through fifth. Every Tuesday after school, theyâd fought a silent war, all because, in an unfortunate playground incident, Simon had accidentally dislodged her wig and sent it flying into a pigeonâs nest. Sheâd spent the next three years determined to ruin his life.
âYou know she was just a nice old lady trying to get you to pay attention,â his mother said now with a knowing smile.
âNice old ladies donât throw your Pokémon cards in the trash,â Simon pointed out.
âThey do when youâre trading them for kiddish wine at the back of the sanctuary,â she said.
âI would never!â
âA mother always knows, Simon.â
âOkay. Fine. But that was a very rare Mew. The only Pokémon thatââ
â Anyway. Ellen Kleinâs daughter just got married to her girlfriend, a lovely woman, youâd like herâwe all like her. But . . .â
Simon rolled his eyes. âBut let me guess: Mrs. Klein is a raging homophobe.â
âNo, itâs not thatâthe girlfriendâs Catholic. Ellen had a fit, wouldnât go to the wedding, and now sheâs wearing mourning clothes and telling everyone that her daughter might as well be dead.â
Simon opened his mouth to crow about how heâd been right all along, that Mrs. Klein was indeed a horrible shrew, but his mother held up a finger to stop him.
A mother, apparently, always knows.
âYes, yes, itâs horrible, but Iâm not telling you so you can feel vindicated. Iâm telling you . . .â She knitted her fingers together, looking suddenly nervous. âI had the strangest feeling when I heard the story, Simon, like I knew she would regret itâbecause I regretted it. Isnât that strange?â She let out a nervous little giggle, but there was no humor in it. âFeeling guilty for something you havenât even done? I canât say why, Simon, but I feel like Iâve betrayed you in some terrible way I canât remember.â
âOf course you havenât, Mom. Thatâs ridiculous.â
âOf course itâs ridiculous. I would never . A parent should have unconditional love for her child.â Her eyes were glossy with unshed tears. âYou know thatâs how I love you, Simon, donât you? Unconditionally?â
âOf course I know that.â
He said it like he meant itâhe did mean it. But, of course, it was just another lie. Because in that other life, the one that had been wiped clean from both their minds, she had betrayed him. Heâd told her the truth, that heâd been turned into a vampire, and she had thrown him out of the house. She had told him he was no longer her son. That her son was dead. Sheâd proven, to both of them, the conditions of her love.
He couldnât remember it happening, but on some level deeper than conscious thought, he remembered the feeling of itâthe pain, the betrayal, the loss. It had never occurred to him she might remember, too.
âThis is silly.â She brushed away a tear, gave herself a little shake. âI donât know why Iâm getting so emotional over this. I just . . . I just had this feeling that I needed to tell you that, and then you showed up here like it was meant to be, and . . .â
âMom.â Simon pulled his mother out of her chair and into a tight hug. She seemed so small to him suddenly, and he thought how hard sheâd worked all these years to protect him,