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that was the real and lasting effect of l’incidente , and one which looked as though it might well stay with him throughout his long, tedious, enforced retirement, a nagging ache that no amount of therapy, exercise or hobbies would ever be able to dispel.
    Opposite the grocery, from a white lorry parked at the kerb, fresh vegetables, fruit and eggs were being sold to a bevy of housewives, all of whom were giving the vendor a hard time about his quality, selection and prices, a daily ritual necessary to everyone’s sense of dignity and self-esteem. The women knew that short of driving to one of the supermarkets on the highway inland, they were stuck with what Mario had on offer, in very much the same way that they were stuck with their husbands, children, relatives, homes and general lot in life. Their only perk was the right to bitch loudly and at length about the inequities of the situation, and in this they indulged freely. Mario, understanding that this was one of the costs of doing business, entered into me ensuing series of mini-dramas with gusto and vivacity, playing his part to the full.
    Zen drifted back across to the shady side of the street, taking in the scene at the greengrocer’s van, a cluster of young people on bicycles, a group of women cooing over a neighbour’s baby, a man leaning against a concrete telephone pole eating an ice cream and eyeing the passers-by. He was wearing a T-shirt with somesort of English slogan on it. Zen walked down two blocks to the end of the commercial area, then turned left into a street old enough to pre-date the rigid grid which had been imposed on later development, curving gently off past wrought-iron gates and spurts of greenery spilling over weathered walls. The villa which he had been assigned was about halfway along the curve, which ended at a crumbling gateway leading into one of the last remaining portions of the original pineta . There was virtually no traffic at all, and no sound to disturb the silence but the perpetual murmur of televisions and the occasional yapping of a small, neurotic dog kept by one of the neighbours.
    He reached his gate, and for some reason paused before unlocking it to glance over his shoulder. There was no one in sight. So they already know where you live , said a voice in his head. ‘Oh, shut up!’ Zen muttered audibly. Such professional paranoia was like the vanity of one of those women on the beach who couldn’t get used to the fact that the sexual stock she had been living off for the last thirty years had just tanked in the market. ‘We’re both yesterday’s men,’ he had told Don Gaspare Limina in Sicily, and he had been right. Why couldn’t he accept that he was no longer a player, and never would be again? In the event the Mafia had failed to kill him, thanks to a stroke of luck and their own incompetence, but he was as good as dead just the same.
    The gravel driveway inside the gate led to a stairway at the side of the house. At first-floor level this connected with a balcony running along the west face. Zen passed the shuttered windows and unlocked the door giving access to his domain. He took his groceries through to the kitchen immediately to the left of the front door and put them away neatly, then returned to the large salotto which took up most of the apartment and slumped down in an armchair, wincing slightly. The panoply of pain that he had lived with for so long had now lifted, but there were still a few malcontent twinges and jabs prepared to make his life a misery if he stretched too far in the wrong direction, or went to sleep in an unsuitable position, or generally overexerted himself in almost any way whatever. The doctors he went to consult once a week at the hospital in Pietrasanta had assured him that there was no permanent damage, and that any ‘perceived discomfort’ was purelysuperficial, temporary and nothing to worry about. He believed them, but these pains were less like the dramatic and evidently