the way it used to be between us. I told myself over and over again on the long journey home that I would someday win my brother back to my side. It hadnât happened yet. If I didnât take the chance now, might I lose it forever?
With a deep breath, I started the tale as it had been told to me by the Templar. âIn the beginning there was one knight â¦â
The story crept out of me slowly, unfolding into the wee hours. The telling brought me back to places and faces Iâd put aside. Being home had dulled the experiences into things less and less real as the days had gone by, but now they were back and the wonder of what I had seen and done was fresh and shocking, even to me.
Torquil listened with rapt attention, breaking in with questions from time to time. There were moments when he appeared doubtful, and others when he was trulyastounded. And when I neared the end of my tale, I saw something in his eyes I had never expected to find. Dare I hope ⦠respect?
âYe escaped with an artifact oâ great power and the soldiers of the King hunt ye,â he said faintly. He shook his head as if to dispel the notion. âItâs like a legend of old, Tormod. Are ye havinâ me on?â He looked at me suspiciously.
âTruly,â I insisted, âbut my worries donât end there.â Restless, I leapt up and started to pace, feeling the edginess within me churn. âThereâs an oddness thatâs come about, one that I cannoâ control. Iâve changed.â I rubbed my eyes, feeling the throb of an aching head approach. My feelings were keyed to Torquilâs and he was worried.
âChanged in what way?â he asked.
I was afraid to speak of my gifts. Iâd long hidden them, especially at home. âYe know I sometimes see things that have noâ as yet happened?â I said. He nodded. I drifted to the rail, gripping it tightly, feeling Torquilâs unease grow. âI have abilities now that Iâve never had before. Iâve been having visions about things happening beyond our croft and land, things that I think I should be making sense oâ, but I cannoâ.â
He shifted, clearly uncomfortable. âI feel what others are feeling. Their emotions make me ill. Sometimes â¦â I hesitated. âI hear their thoughts in my head. I cannoâshut them off or push them away. Itâs as if my mind is full to bursting anâ Iâm about to go mad.â
He gaped. âThatâs what happened the other day, isnât it?â he asked. âYe had another vision.â His wariness of me peaked.
âAye. It comes on suddenly anâ I have no way to stop it. Iâve always believed that the visions come for a reason, to warn me that something is about to happen or to give me clues as to what Iâm meant to do, but now I have all these other things going on and I donât think itâs supposed to be that way.â
âWhat ye said just now, about the visions telling ye something yeâre meant to do. What did ye mean?â His eyes were fast on the horizon and yet I felt his attention, sharp and keen as he waited for an answer.
âSometimes I try my best to change what I see. He told me I could,â I said, remembering the many conversations weâd had about that very thing.
âWho, Tor?â he asked. Torquil hadnât called me that in a long while. It gave me a good feeling of home and the way it used to be.
âThe Templar Alexander. He had the vision of what was, what would be, anâ what could be. He said what I saw in the visions could be changed, because the future is noâ yet determined.â I sighed. âBut Iâve noâ seen any evidence oâ this. Iâve tried, Torquil, so hard to changewhat I see, but near as I can tell I have no effect on the future whatsoever. Truly, sometimes I think I often
cause
what I see to happen.â
My heart was