assume weâll be putting in overtime on this wedding?â After Iâd nodded, she continued, âI have a ton of dirty laundry, and I need to go grocery shopping.â
I waved her on. She hung the dustpan on its hook, then picked up her purse. Hesitating at the door, she asked, âYou arenât going to let Oliverâs death get to you, are you?â
âIâm fine. But I wish I knew what he tried to tell me. Not to agree with Lew, but it sure seemed like Oliver expected me to do something.â
âNot necessarily true. His mind couldâve flipped back to your earlier conversation with him. Heâd talked about the spade. He saw you leaning over him. Put it out of your mind. We have enough to deal with when it comes to this wedding.â
I made a face, but Lois didnât see it. Sheâd already gone. I counted out the cash drawer, then glanced through the dayâs orders, but saw nothing interesting. I checked the walk-in cooler to jog my memory as to what fresh flowers were available for Oliverâs upcoming funeral.
Would Eddie want red roses for the spray on the casket or something earthier, befitting a gardener? Bronze and yellow mums with an assortment of greensâivy, variegated pittosporum, and some gold-and-orange croton leavesâwould be appropriate for a man whoâd made his living from loving plants.
I turned off the workroom lights and strolled up front, where I flipped the lock and put the CLOSED sign into place. I particularly like being in the shop when the doors are shut to the public and the lights are off. The pressure eases, and I can relax and let my mind drift. I stared across the street at Kelseyâs Bar and Grill and felt a need for an order of their curly fries.
Two years ago, after my husband, Carl, had passed away, Iâd lost one hundred pounds. My struggle to keep the weight off is an hour-to-hour battle. With the stress Iâd been under, I yearned for a plate of comfort. But I summoned up some willpower and turned my back on Kelseyâs, staring instead at the shopâs shadows.
This month was the second anniversary of my husbandâs death. It had taken every one of those days to accept the fact that he was gone and my life was forever changed. For twenty-four years, Carl had been at my side. Iâd been married to him longer than Iâd been alone. Weâd been friends before we became lovers. I could tell him anything, talk to him about everything under the moon and stars, and heâd listened, really listened to what I had to say.
I hadnât known the true extent of his faith in me until he became a deputy with the Spencer County Sheriffâs Department. Heâd trusted me with the facts of cases he worked on. Together weâd explored possibilities as to what might have happened. Weâd made wild conjectures. I was a great one for taking that âshot in the dark.â Carl had urged me to let my mind flow even if the picture seemed askew.
Carlâs legacy had been a bountiful education, but the art of solving a mystery had been a fraction of his tutoring. From the first day Iâd met him, heâd tried to teach me to trust and to forgive. I hadnât been a willing pupil. When your heartâs been broken, it isnât easy to give those emotions another chance.
When I was eight years old, my father walked out of my life. For more years than I care to count, he was simply a name on a birthday card or a box of grapefruit at Christmas. This past December heâd come to River City for a visit, and Iâd learned that you canât have trust without forgiveness.
I smiled sadly. It hurt that Carl wasnât here to see that Iâd gone to the head of the class. The lines of communication with my father were open. In fact, last night Iâd gotten a call from him. Heâd said he had a fantastic surprise for me and that it would arrive this afternoon.
I wasnât