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pill for every ache and pain you suffer from or you
imagine
suffering from. They blame it on stress and forget all the rest. I’ll
be better
off being a bastard egotistic lawyer than a know-it-all doctor.”
    “No offense taken,” my mom replied, taken aback
by my sudden
outburst.
    “Why should you? I am doing what you want, am I
not? Now, all of you
just leave me alone!” I said rushing out and slamming the door behind
me.
    Alone in my room, I was crying. I knew my
parents had a hard time understanding
and accepting my way of being. But what if they were right? What if
being a
lawyer or a doctor was a safe option? It’s the “ifs” that are killing
us. Always
the “ifs.”
    While my parents were pushing me towards law,
the entire universe
was trying to keep me away from it. The first sign came when, despite
being the
best in my class, I failed the admission exam and I was not accepted
into the
best law school in the country. It was a miracle, but it was perceived
as a
disaster that would bring shame upon the family for generations and
generations. No one could let this happen, and definitely not my
parents. I was
sent to a private law school where I continued to be an exceptional
student,
which confirmed everyone’s beliefs that I would be a brilliant lawyer,
one that
would make everyone proud. With time, my failure became a thing of the
past and
life followed its normal, easy course.
    However, after four years of university, when I
was a step away from
becoming a lawyer, instead of being excited, I was scared and instead
of
feeling liberated, I felt lost.
    Although I couldn’t explain why, to me,
practicing law felt terribly
wrong.
    “I don’t think I’m cut for being a lawyer, Mom!”
    “You’re just a bit scared. It’s perfectly
normal. Once out of
school, you’ll start a new phase in your life. Don’t worry! You’ll be
an
excellent lawyer, perhaps even a famous judge.”
    “But what if I won’t?”
    “Stop this nonsense! Everyone in our family is
a lawyer, a doctor or
an engineer! Why do you think you’re any different?”
    “You make it sound like being different is
something bad.”
    “In this case, it is! You’ll be a great lawyer.
I don’t want to hear
about it any longer.”
    When she said that, I felt like a puppet. There
was nothing I wanted
more than to break free. But, I was clueless on how I could make this
happen.
    Over the time, my panic attacks and anxiety
took over. Frightened
and confused, once again all I wanted was to be a writer, a gardener,
or even a
chef and travel the world.
----
    Dora’s
Journal Notes
Never be swayed by
others’
expectations.
Don’t let pride
and fear stand between
you and your dreams.
Choose the content
over the label.
Choose the person over the title. Choose the truth over the appearances.
Believing you know
what is best for
your kids is like believing the future will be identical to the past.
Feelings are not
thoughts to be
explained. Go with them and the explanation will follow.
Let others’
experiences be your
compass, but always choose to be the one at the helm.
Being good at
something does not mean
you cannot be happier doing something else. You owe it to yourself to
find what
that is.
Advice that is
imposed on others
becomes a command.
Don’t ask your
children to be something
they are not. Instead, teach them how to make the most of who they are.
----

5
Depression: An Opportunity
or a Curse
    When
the clouds of a storm are high above
    And
we feel lost with no chance to rise off the
ground,
    We
might pay a dear price and talk to him
    Our
psychiatrist, doctor, who’s happy and slim.
    He
might give us a pill to throw us into sleep,
    But
when awake we might feel worse than a dead
sheep.
    That’s
why you should take my advice and do as I say
    Ignore
depression and it will soon fly away!

When I didn’t
want to read any book or go outside, when I just wanted to sleep all
day and
everything seemed to trigger tears, pain, and a sense of loss,