banana, then?â she said. Melanie wouldnât get a break for lunch until almost noon. She had to eat something.
âI said Iâm not hungry.â
Gigi flinched. If her husband routinely spoke to her in that tone, sheâd divorce him. If a friend did, sheâd cut off contact. Only Melanie, with her sad eyes and defiant expression, could heap emotional abuse on her mother.
Still, she couldnât let Melanie get away with acting like a brat.
âWatch your tone,â Gigi said, but when she caught a glimpse of Melanieâs face, she regretted snapping back. Her daughter was clearly in pain.
When had Melanieâs kohl-rimmed eyes changed? They looked to Gigi like black mussel shells. There was something in the center of those eyes reminiscent of the glistening fragility of a pearl, but try as she might, Gigi couldnât crack through the hard exterior and reach it.
Melanie grabbed her backpack off the kitchen table and shoved her binder inside.
âYou donât have to be at school for almost an hour,â Gigi pointed out.
âRaven is picking me up.â
Raven. It couldnât possibly be a real name, could it? Gigi wasnât even sure if Raven was a girl or a boy, and an early glimpse of him/her hadnât helped clear things up. Raven hid behind a sweep of dark hair and seemed incapable of smiling. Gigi wanted to ask Melanie, but was afraid of her reaction.
Melanie was almost out the door. She hadnât eaten. She looked tired. She was wearing a long-sleeved shirt and black jeans and the mercury was expected to reach 80 today.
âHoney? Do you want to change your shirt? Itâs supposed to get pretty hot.â
âGod! Can you just stop nagging me?â The door slammed on Melanieâs final word.
Gigi sank into a chair, blinking hard. Felix nudged her hand with his cold nose and she curled an arm around him, grateful for the comfort.
Gigi knew that whenever she reached out to touch her daughter, or asked Melanie to put away her phone and talk, Melanie viewed Gigi as a giant chicken relentlessly pecking at her. She could see it in the way Melanie shrank from her, or exited a room moments after Gigi entered.
Whenever she spoke to Melanie, all her daughter heard was this: Peck, peck, peck .
Why couldnât she hear what Gigi was really saying? I love you, I love you, I love you.
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Chapter Three
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Before Newport Cove
WHEN HER DAUGHTER, BREE, was just seven months old, Tessa called 911 for the first time.
It was a rainy day, and the house had felt stuffy, so Tessa had walked upstairs to open a window. Sheâd left Bree on the living room rug, encircled by toys.
Sheâd been gone for sixty seconds, sheâd insisted later. Ninety at most. She couldnât get the timeline exactly straight, though. Had she paused to pick up Harryâs dirty socks off the bathroom floor and toss them in the hamper, or had she done that earlier in the day? She mightâve shaken out the comforter and smoothed it over the sheets instead of leaving it crumpled. An unmade bed had always nagged at Tessa.
The truth was, she had no idea how long sheâd left Bree alone. Jagged patches of time had begun to disappear from her memory, like sinkholes forming in the fog of her exhaustion. Bree hadnât slept through the night, not even once, since coming home from the hospital. Bree was fussy. Sensitive. Spirited. Whatever the politically correct term was nowadays. Instead of nursing contentedly, like all the other babies in their Mommy and Me class, Bree always took a few sips, then yanked herself away from Tessaâs breast as if sheâd been scalded.
âIt must be something in your diet,â a lactation consultant had said, looking at Tessa with accusing eyes. âAre you eating a lot of broccoli? Chocolate? Caffeine?â
Tessa had mutely shaken her head at each fresh charge. She wasnât eating much of anything other than toast and