âDidnât your mother give you the message? We arenât going away after all.â
I sometimes played doubles opposite his mother. He was handsome with deep-set eyes and thick dark hair. I lingered too long looking at his muscular arms and broad shoulders and he kept his eyes on me long enough for it to be noticeable. I blushed at the attention. He was a child, really, even if he didnât look it.
âThat sucks.â He looked at me, momentarily embarrassed, then said, âSorry.â He smiled and asked: âHow are you doing, Mrs. Willard?â
âFine. Fine. Are you working this summer?â I asked.
âNah. Taking the summer off. Hey, you take any pictures of those sunrises you watch?â
âNo,â I said, startled that he knew I was pacing the streets each dawn.
âToo bad. I bet youâd get some great ones.â He said good-bye and walked away.
Lori gave me a look. âWhat was that about?â she asked.
âSometimes I get up early and take a walk. I didnât think anyone was paying attention,â I said, watching him go. Iâd never seen him on the street before and I wondered when heâd seen me. Who else watched me pacing the streets under the lamplights?
âDonât hire him to do anything because heâll rob you blind,â Lori said. âHe ate all the cookies in my pantry. Crackers, too. I bet he had a party.â
âThey all do,â I said.
âSome are worse than others. And heâs one you have to watch out for.Do you know they had to pull him out of school? For good this time.â
âCollege is hard, Lori. I didnât have an easy time of it, either.â
âApparently, he was having âissues.â I wonder how Franâs going to whitewash this episode.â
Stevenâs mother, Fran, had become increasingly protective of him. He used to wander at low tide for hours looking for oysters to sell around the neighborhood, smart and entrepreneurial from the get-go. He was the kind of son you wanted to have because he was going to be someone special. Except something had happened and he stopped getting things right. His deviancy was overlooked at first, but it had been snowballing lately. He had locked two seagulls in his motherâs bathroom last summer, and when she came home, they attacked herâsquawking and shitting everywhere. She ran out of the house screaming and the birds followed her out the front door. I chuckled thinking about itâFranâs own starring role in The Birds .
âThe school saw him as a threat,â Lori whispered. I asked her to whom, but she had no answer. I knew she had heard it thirdhand.
âHe also went through my closets.â
âMaybe he just wanted to see how he looked in your tennis skirts. Iâm sure he has nice legs.â
âAs if you need more men in your life when youâve got Jeffrey.â
I was always hearing these indictments from women around here, but they had no idea. I had resigned myself to nodding politely and pretending I was ravaged nightly or at least weekly. Once I even heard someone say, I wouldnât mind having his slippers under my bed. I wanted to shout at them all, tell them the truth, but what could I say? There was no need to embarrass myself in front of them. They wouldnât show me any kindness about it; it would just become drunken dinner-party conversation to make themselves feel better. It would start with, Can you believe after all that they donât even screw? How sad , they would say in unison . How sad is she? I didnât need their pity, so I kept itto myself. Except sometimes, looking around, I wanted to tell someone and not hear This was your choice.
âIâm not saying Iâm going to do anything with him, Lori. Iâm saying heâs handsome.â
âYouâre terrible,â she said, laughing.
She watched him disappear around the bend and I knew what she