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leave.  I’ve got to get to Stoney’s before
     he comes back home from his shift.
                  I’m in the shower.  I’ve spent the last hour cramming everything I can into my car. 
     I have to leave it at Stoney’s in the garage so I’ll have anything left when I come
     back.  I look out of the curtain at the clock and it’s two, I’m supposed to meet the
     guys at three-thirty.  Chad isn’t due home until four so I’m good on time.
                  As I walk into the bedroom with my robe on, the room shifts.  I’m snatched by my hair
     and slammed into the wall.
                  “Where in the fuck do you think you are going?”
                  I try to stand firm.  “Let me go, Chad.”
                  He presses me harder into the wall, running his hand up my robe.  “No.  I told you
     that you were not going off to follow those guys around like a bitch in heat.  They
     don’t want you!”  He slams my head against the wall. “You are stupid and fat, no one
     besides me will ever want you.”  He throws me on the bed and starts unzipping his
     pants.  I try to fight him off, I hit and kick at him. In turn, he slaps me and punches
     me.  Finally, I get my hands on the bedside lamp.  I grab it and smash him over the
     head with it and he falls off of me.
                  “You fucking bitch!”
                  I jump up and run out of the room, adjusting my robe that is still half hanging on. 
     I have my keys in my hand in the kitchen when he comes staggering out the bedroom
     door.
                  “You are going to pay for this.”
                  I look over and see a gallon of cooking oil so I open it up and dump it all over the
     floor as fast as I can.  “You’ll have to come get me mother fucker!”  I take off running
     out the front door.  I hear him cussing and falling all over the place but by the
     time he makes it to the door, I’m driving like a bat out of hell to Stoney’s.
                  I look down at the clock, praying they haven’t left me.  I reach to grab my phone
     and realize it’s back at the house.  Not going back to get it.
                  I see the guys glaring at me when I come flying into the driveway.  Thinking he might
     be behind me, I scream for them to open the garage.
                  Once I’m in the garage, I step out of the car.  “Give me a second guys to grab some
     clothes.  I was in a hurry.  I didn’t want you to leave me.  I’m sorry.”  I don’t
     even realize I’m crying until Stoney grabs my arm.
                  “Ivie.  Stop.  Look at me.”
                  Suddenly I realize why he wants to look at me.  My face is starting to hurt, well
     throb is actually more like it.  “No.” I keep looking down. “I’m fine, just let me
     go get dressed and I’ll be ready to go.”  I dart past him and run to his bathroom,
     shutting the door.
                  I step in front of the mirror and I’m horrified at what I see.  I guess my adrenalin
     was pumping so hard I didn’t feel exactly how many hits he got in.  I didn’t bring
     my make-up or anything in here with me.  I gently wash my face to get the dried blood
     off of it.
                  Looking down at my bruised and battered body, I realize that Chad was right.  I’m
     fat, and looking at this face, no one will ever want me.
                  I dress and hear the guys arguing in the kitchen.              
                  Keeg is yelling. “No, I’m going to kick his ass!  He did that to her.  He’s not going
     to get away with this.”
                  Stoney is trying to talk to him.  “Keeg, man we have to calm down, he’s a cop.  We
     have to play this smart.”
                  I step around the