dead?â
âLots of my subjects are dead. I use photographs.â
âWhat do you do if they were unattractive?â
She laughed.
âThat can be awkward,â she said, âbut the first rule of portraiture is kindness.â
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Later, we walked down the steps and out onto the lawn leading to the waterâs edge. She took off her heels, and held them in her hand. Iâd had another glass of whiskey by then. The lights of the house cast our shadows out onto the grass, and her necklaceâtiny triangles of linked stained glass, green and blue and dull orange, framed in pewterâsparkled as she turned her head.
âThe grass feels good,â she said.
âItâs beautiful, isnât it,â I said. âThis place. It doesnât seem real.â
She thought for a moment, looking at the house behind us, shining like an ocean liner in the dark, with a quarter mile of private beach stretching in either direction.
âFor people like us, it isnât. Itâs out of reach. Mrs. Spruance is a nice woman, but I only get to come because of the watercolorclass and because my father is a professor at the university. You get to come because she likes young doctors and she likes giving money to hospitals. Weâre the decoration.â
âNothing seems real tonight,â I said, looking at her.
She smiled.
âIâm just an art teacher,â she said. âDonât be fooled.â
âMaybe youâll be a famous artist someday.â
âIâm a woman,â she said, with a hint of bitterness. âAnd portraits are always out of style.â
âYou could paint something else.â
âI could,â she said. âBut I like portraits. They matter to people. They mean more than other kinds of paintings.â
We reached the dock.
âOkay, then, itâs your turn,â she said, as we stepped out onto the wooden planks. âWhat do you want?â
âItâs nothing complicated. I want a better life than my parents had, I guess. And I want to make a contribution.â
âTo what?â
âTo cardiology if I can. A lot of specialties donât do very much. But cardiologists actually make a difference.â
âSo youâre ambitious.â
âYes,â I said. âI guess I am. Maybe it sounds silly.â
At the end of the dock, where I might have kissed her, she stopped suddenly and looked at her watch.
âOh, no,â she said. âItâs late. I have to leave.â My heart sank, but then she turned to me.
âYouâre easy to talk to, you know,â she continued. âI like you. You donât sound silly. You sound honest and you have a real job. Itâs refreshing. Plus youâre not bad-looking and youâre not too old. Thatâs always a plus.â
With that, she reached for her purse, withdrew a card, and handed it to me.
âHereâs my number,â she said. âCall me if youâd like to.â
I held it up in the dim light. Rachel Adams, it read. Artist. Portraits and Private Classes.
âAre you sure you have to go?â
âI really do,â she said. âIâm sorry. I have to take my class home. None of them can drive at night.â
She hesitated, her eyes on my face, and she must have seen how disappointed I was, because she stepped up and kissed me lightly on the cheek.
âGood night,â she said, simply. âIt was nice to meet you. I hope Iâll see you again.â
I watched her walk away down the dock. As she stepped out on the grass, she turned, and gave me a friendly wave, her pale arm leaping out of the dark, and then she disappeared into the heavy shadows cast by the veranda on the lawn. But a few moments later I saw her again, slim and elegant on the well-lit stairs leading up to the veranda, and I realized that sheâd put her heels back on.
For her, that night canât have meant very much at the