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basketball, and I’m in key club and I’m the junior class president, and some oilier clubs too, so if you want to join anything, just let me know. I’ll get you in like that.” He snaps his fingers. “Sorry. Corny.”
    “No. It’s… good. You’re a little bit of an overachiever, huh?”
    “There’s no point in blending in, you know? Got to grab the power where you can.” He shakes his head at himself. “That sounds awful. I just mean… you’ve got to do what you can to get ahead, to get into college, that stuff. Well, we’re here.”
    He gives a little lopsided grin as we face a classroom doorway. Beyond it people are shuffling their stuff around, cramming themselves into seats, gossiping about all sorts of tilings I don’t understand. They all have Gap clothes and that sort of almost-designer, mall-casual look, except all the guys wear work boots. There are a few guys wearing flannel and black sweatshirts. And here I am in my holey jeans with peace signs. I take a deep breath. I have no chance of fitting in, transferring in the middle of junior year. It’s hopeless.
    The ache inside me grows and grows.
    Auroraphobia, Northern Lights creep you out.
    Autodysomophobia, you are afraid of someone who smells vile.
    Automatonophobia, ventriloquist’s dummies terrify you.
    Automysophobia, being dirty is the end of the world. Autophobia, you are afraid of yourself.

    [ * ]

    The evil Megan girl is not in my homeroom, but she is in my Spanish class. Ian drops me off at the door there too and she eyes us suspiciously. I swear, if she were a cat she’d be hissing.
    “It really wouldn’t be a big deal for me to come and walk you to your advanced chemistry class,” Ian says for the fourth time. “I mean, I don’t want you to get lost or anything.”
    “Okay. Yeah. Thanks, Who [_is _]that girl?” I nod at Megan.
    “Oh, Megan Crowley.”
    I stand up on my tiptoes and whisper, “I think she hates me.”
    He laughs and nods while I go back to my flat feet. “Probably.”
    I wait for more. He just kneads at the top of his shoulder and yells hi to some guy in a soccer shirt who yells hi back to him.
    My hands find their way to my hips. “Are you going to tell me why she hates me?”
    His attention turns to me. His eyes flash. “Probably doesn’t like the way you smell.”
    “What?” I step back. I thought he was nice, not slap worthy. Not like I go around slapping people, but whatever.
    He raises his hands. “Just kidding. Just kidding. You’re the competition. Megan hates competition. She has a tiling for Nick Colt. She saw you come into school with him. End of story, beginning of competition.”
    “Right, like [_I’m _]competition. Mini me.” I walk into Spanish class, where Megan whispers snide tilings as Mrs. Provost, the teacher, introduces me to everyone and finds me a place to sit. The girl next to Megan giggles behind her hand and looks at me. Great.
    The last tiling I’m paying attention to is Mrs. Provost, who is saying, “Zara, what an unusual name.”
    She glances at my ripped-up jeans with the peace signs and her eyes shift into another thought. “Mice to have you here. Class, let’s begin. All in Spanish.”
    I stare out the window, zone out, and wish more than anything that I’m back home with my dad and he’s alive and my mom’s all happy and we’re eating eggplant smothered with mozzarella cheese and everything is normal again. But it can’t ever be normal again.
    Outside, a birch tree bends from the weight of the snow. It’ll spring back up once the snow melts, back to its normal, upright self.
    Could that happen to me?
    The answer is a big fat no.
    Megan Crowley turns all the way around in her seat to stare at me. Something evil flashes in her eyes and for a second I think she’s not real, not human. She lifts a perfectly manicured fingernail at me and mouths, “I am onto you.”
    Que?No entiendo.
    “What?”I mouth back.
    She does it again. “I am onto you.”
    Mrs.