but it’s not looking good. The risk of infection is too high.”
“Fuck,” Gash said.
“Yeah, she’s not handling that well.”
Lacey and Whizz leaned against each other, and he saw Daisy between them. “We’ll go to her, take Daisy with us.”
Stink watched as Anthony rushed over and hugged Daisy tightly to him.
The Skulls kids were fucking weird.
“Steven is with her now, but you’re going to need for her to go through with this.”
“What about Simon and Tabitha?” Ripper asked.
“They were both shot and have suffered concussions. We’re waiting for them to wake up.”
“Sasha? What’s going on with her?” Brianna asked.
Once again Sandy looked sick. “She lost a lot of blood, and … she’s not waking up.”
“Is she dead?” Death asked.
“No, she’s not dead, and she’s also not brain dead. Her mind is showing activity, but she should have woken up by now. The doctor who treated her head wound before believes there may be an underlying condition. We’re running tests to make sure.”
“If anything happens to her, Pussy won’t be the same. It’ll kill him,” Death said.
“Keep an eye on her.”
“What about Angel?” Gash asked.
“She’s having contractions, and the doctors are trying to ease them without inducing labor.” Angel still had another six weeks to go before she gave birth. “That’s it for now.”
Many of them may not have died, but they had lost a great deal. He couldn’t imagine being in Sally’s position right now.
Stink moved forward, taking hold of Sandy’s hand, and leading her away from all of the questions. She didn’t need this now.
He walked into the bathroom, he shut and locked the door.
“Breathe, it’s okay. You’re okay. It’s just us.”
“It’s not okay. I’m not okay. I can’t give them all the answers they need. I can’t save them.”
“I know. It’s not your job, okay? All you have to do is take care of them, help them, that’s it. You’re not God, nor are you a miracle worker.”
Pulling her to him, Stink held her tightly before she finally let go. As a doctor she had the training to keep all the fear and all the panic at bay. Once that was over, only a shell remained, and he was determined to break through that shell she’d created. He was not going to allow Sandy to be forgotten.
“The bullets, Stink, they’ve hurt our friends, our family. I want to kill him.”
“We will.”
“Sally’s going to lose her leg, and she’s going to need to practice with a prosthetic. She’s only just getting her life back, and already part of it is being taken away. Tabitha and Simon, what if something goes wrong? Sasha, she’s blind, and she’s not waking up. They believe there is pressure building on her brain. There’s so much that can go wrong, and I can’t fix everything.”
He pulled away, cupping her face. “Look at me.”
Her eyes were full of tears, and seeing them was breaking him apart. “I can’t help them.”
“You’re not God, Sandy. You’re not God. You don’t control who lives and who dies. You’re Sandy. You’re a doctor who helps. You’re helping.”
She nodded.
“No one can do what you can do. You’re strong.”
Sandy shook her head. “No, I’m not. I’m weak.”
Stink slammed his lips down on hers. It was not the appropriate time, and probably not the response she was looking for, but it was all he had. Those moments of the bullets firing had nearly killed him. He hadn’t been near Sandy. He’d been near Eva, and so had taken her down just before Tiny reached them.
“I thought I’d lost you,” Stink said. “I was scared one of those bullets had taken you away from me.” He let his own tears show.
“I’m not good enough for you, Stink.”
“You are, and I’m going to prove it to you.” He wiped away her tears. “You’re one of the strongest women I know.”
She forced a laugh. “I’m not. I know a lot of stronger women who have faced a hell of a lot more than