wasn't joking. They were still in the house I spent much of my adolescence in. These men were not welcome.
The twins stood, angry yet knowing that staying would do no good.
"If you hear anything you are to call Taavi," said one.
"When I find Grandma I will do as I damn well please. Out!"
They zipped up their sweatshirts and with a nod at Kate, but ignoring me, they left.
"Ow. What they hell!?"
"What is wrong with you? They could have ripped you to shreds then how would we find Grandma?"
"Sorry, I lost it a little. But don't worry, I can take them if I have to."
"Ooh, big tough guy aren't we?"
"I'm sorry, I got upset."
"You need to get a grip, Faz. Grandma is missing and... Oh, sorry."
Kate wrapped her arms around me and whispered in my ear as I cried and my body shook and I felt empty inside like there was nothing left of my life.
Not Grandma. She couldn't be gone. She was the only constant in my life and I could not lose her. Not then. Not ever.
"It's okay. We'll find her. Don't you worry."
"Why didn't you come and get me sooner, Kate? Why didn't Rikka come and tell me straight away?" I wiped my eyes, and stood back from her, even though I wanted to stay held and warm forever.
"Because we knew you'd react like this, Faz. Look, we did all we could, figured she would turn up and she would be fine. She often goes missing for days at a time, off on one of her expeditions. You know how she is. And, well, to be honest we thought maybe it would be better not to tell you and she would turn up."
"What! Even with a dead girl in the house? And why wouldn't you tell me?"
"Because you'd overreact and go nuts, like you just did with the twins. Just because Matilda was found here it doesn't mean anything bad has happened to Grandma. You know what this place is like. People come and go all the time."
"That doesn't include vampires. You know how she feels about them." I saw the anguish, like a slap to the face. Me and my big mouth. "You know she loves you, Kate. I meant the others. Other vampires. Ugh, sorry."
"I know, but it still hurts, Faz. I know what my kind... because they are my kind now, whether I like it or not. I know what they did to your family. I'm sorry."
"Hey, it's not your fault. It was a long time ago, and she loves you. I do, too." I stared into those beautiful eyes and saw all the pain, the hurt, the difficulty of her being who, what, she now was. It was no easy thing, but she was brave. Strong. Stronger than me. "Okay, you didn't come see me because you thought I'd interfere and make things worse, right?" She nodded. "But Rikka has managed that on his own, and so have the vampires. So you came to get me."
"Right. We have to fix this, Faz. It's gone too crazy. They're all going to get themselves killed."
"And the rest of us, too."
"Exactly. Come on, I have an idea."
I looked questioningly at Kate. She just nodded and smiled as if to say, trust me. I trusted her with my life.
Slow Down
"This was your idea?"
"No, we'll get to that in a minute. Just lie back and close your eyes."
"Um, okay." We were in my old bedroom upstairs at Grandma's, and as Kate led me by the hand up the stairs I fought a battle inside myself. Part of me was dog-tired, mind whirling with thoughts of horrible things happening to Grandma, the other part of my brain, well, I say brain, I mean something else entirely, was thinking, wondering, maybe hoping, that Kate was leading me upstairs to you-know-what. When we went into the bedroom I honestly didn't know what to think. Talk about bad timing, but was she serious?
"Close them," she said in a husky voice.
"They are closed." What was I doing? What was she doing? This was wrong, but I couldn't help it. I was being led like an obedient pet, mind lost to everything but worry, yet still desire refused to leave me.
I felt ashamed for thinking of Kate at a time like this, but she has a hold on me, this effect I can't, don't want to, shake. Is it the vampire charm,