Dry: A Memoir Read Online Free Page B

would be to have an intervention.” She is trembling, I see. Her bob is quivering ever so slightly.
    The human resources woman speaks up. “We feel that it would be in your best interest for you to admit yourself into a treatment center.”
    I look at her, and realize I hardly recognize her without a stack of paychecks in her hand. Next to her, Rick is doing his best imitation of somebody who is not a psychopath. He looks at me with such sincere concern and compassion that I want to harm him with a stick. Rick is the most insincere, backstabbing person I have ever met. But he fools everyone. They are all tricked by his kindness. It’s amazing how shallow advertising people truly are. Rick is a Mormon and although this is not a reason to hate him, I hate all Mormons as a result of knowing Rick. I want to say, what’s he doing here? But I don’t because he’s Elenor’s partner and they are a team, like me and Greer, only they are also my bosses.
    The human resources woman drones on. “There are many treatment options, but we feel a residence program would be the best course of action under the circumstances.”
    Oh, now, this is just way over the top. “Are you saying I need to go to rehab?”
    Silence, but nods all around.
    “Rehab?” I say again, just to make sure. “I mean, I can cut back on my drinking. I do not need to leave work and go to some fucking rehab.”
    More solemn nods. There’s a thick tension in the room. As if everyone is ready to pounce and restrain me should I break out in a rash of denial.
    “It would only be for thirty days,” the human resources woman says, as if this fact is supposed to somehow comfort me.
    I feel this incredible panic and at the same time, I am certain there is nothing I can do. The thing is, I recognize what’s happening here, have seen it before in meetings when I am trying to sell a campaign to a client that they will never, never, never buy.
    I will either have to quit right now and find another job or I will have to go to their ridiculous rehab. If I quit, I’m sure I can get another job. Pretty sure. Except advertising is sort of a small world. And I just know that Rick would be on the phone in five minutes calling everybody and telling everybody in the city that I’m a drunk who refused to go to rehab, so I quit. And really, what could happen? It’s actually possible I could be without a job. Even though I make way too much money, I still live paycheck to paycheck, so I would actually be broke. Like the bum that Greer already thinks I am.
    It’s simple: I lose. “Okay,” I say.
    Every shoulder in the room relaxes. It’s as if a valve has been released.
    Elenor speaks up. “Are you saying you’ll agree to a thirty-day stay in a treatment center?”
    I glance over at Greer, who is looking at me expectantly. “It doesn’t really seem like you’re giving me a choice.”
    Elenor smiles at me and clasps her hands together. “Excellent,” she says. “I’m very glad to hear this.”
    The human resources woman rises from the couch. “There’s the Betty Ford Center in Los Angeles. But Hazeldon is also excellent. We’ve had many people check into Hazeldon.”
    Roaches check in but they don’t check out is what I want to say. And then I remember the priest. It was about three years ago and he was giving me a blowjob in the back of his Crown Victoria. I was drunk out of my mind and couldn’t get it up. He told me, “You really should check yourself into the Proud Institute. It’s the gay rehab center in Minnesota.”
    So maybe I should do this instead. The guys will definitely have better bodies at a gay rehab hospital. “What about Proud Institute?” I say.
    The human resources woman nods her head politely. “You could go there. It’s, for, you know, gay people.”
    I look at Rick and he has turned away because he hates the word gay . It’s the only word that can crack his veneer.
    “That might be better,” I say. A rehab hospital run by fags