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military, but it’s a risk I’ve prepared myself for. Kind of.
    Allie is the only person in my life who I can’t see living without. No matter if we’re an exclusive couple, which I highly prefer, or just friends; I need her in my life one way or another. When I’m without her, I feel as if I can’t breathe. When we fight, my heart remains contracted until we make up. At her smile, my knees go weak; my tongue gets twisted, and my insides become knotted. The very thought of me losing her is slowly killing me. Over the last few days, I haven’t eaten a single thing; my appetite is nonexistent, and my nerves are shot. I’m scared shitless to see her reaction to me leaving her. I have to keep telling myself that I’m doing this for her, only her.
    Do I care that she may hate me for my decision? Fuck yeah. But I’d rather live in pain being without her, rather than be here comforting her when she receives the news that her brother has been killed in the line of duty. Which would happen, if I wasn’t following him. I’m not even sure that Kyle and I will be on the same unit or get deployed at the same time. All I can do is pray for answered prayers. Otherwise, I signed the next four years of my life away for nothing. Walk by faith and not by fear, right? I have faith, and faith never fails.

 
    Four
    Indecisiveness
     
    AS I ENTER the Andersons’, I debate on who to tell first: Lucille, Kyle, or Allie. Immediately, I eliminate Allie; she’ll need the support of all three of us when I drop my bomb on her. In fact, shit’s going to hit the fan when she finds out I’m headed out for training soon, and that I’m not allowed to contact her for at least two months minimum. She’s had a couple of weeks to let Kyle’s departure sink in; I’m leaving her with only a few days to process my leaving her. I say this as if I’m actually leaving her, but I’m not. It’s just that I already know those are going to be the words that slip out of her mouth: “You’re leaving me?” I can hear the words in my mind, as if she’s already spoken them. She knows I would never leave her, but those three words rip me to shreds.
    “What’s up, bro?” Kyle greets, jogging down the stairs as I enter inside their home.
    “Not much, man. Hey, is Allie home?” I ask, returning his one arm hug. He shakes his head . “No, she and mom left a little over an hour ago to go into town.” His response calms me a little. I stand in the foyer with my eyes fixated on the ceiling, thinking if I should go ahead and tell him since he’s the only one home.
    “Why? Something wrong?” he asks quizzically. I shake my head.
    “Pfft, please. Bro, I’ve know you too long to know when there’s something bothering you. Spill it.”
    He’s right. If anyone knows me better than myself or Allie, it’s Kyle. Plus, dude has psychic-like qualities. “Umm, I begin training in, like, seven days,” I announce.
    “You got a job? Why? Classes begin in just a few weeks.” My emotions are all over the damn place. I’m nervous, anxious, and angry. And as he reminds me that classes begin soon, and I’m throwing away my scholarship because of his dumbass decision, I’m becoming nauseous. Not only has he cost me my schooling, but his sudden and wild hair-up-the-ass decision , may just cost me the love of my life as well.
    “No, dumbass, I signed my four years with the Marine Corps,” I inform. Kyle’s jaw drops, “You didn’t.” He seems stunned by my announcement. “I did,” I confirm.
    His head drops and he takes in a few breaths. “Why? Wyatt, why would you decide to do that?” he asks aggravated.
    Isn’t it obvious? He’s doing it for Allie, and so am I. “The same reason you did. For her,” I remind.
    “Bro, she was only part of my reason for joining,” he explains.
    “Part? What the fuck are the other reasons?” I ask angrily. He rubs his hands up and down the front of his face, and blows out a breath. “I want to make a