don’t care. I’m not moving until I have answers.
“What the hell, Alex?” Landon reaches over and tries to grab the steering wheel from me, but I push him back.
“Don’t what the hell me. What is going on? You haven’t answered one question since you got in this car, and you look like the walking dead. What the hell happened in Chicago?”
Landon glares at me, his face growing redder by the second.
“Nothing! Nothing fucking happened! I’m just not in a good mood. I’m entitled to not be a fucking smiling idiot every time I’m around you.”
“What fucking happened? Why the hell are you so pissed off? Is it Caroline? Is she still upset with you?”
Landon turns away from me looking out the window as rain begins pouring down outside my car, mirroring how I feel inside.
“Get out of the goddamn street, Alex.”
I lift my foot off the brake and ease on the gas. I drive up a couple of more blocks before I find a place to turn off in a dark alley where we won’t be bothered.
I park Tessie and turn off the ignition. I wait trying to calm my anger. I need to give him a chance to tell me what happened. It’s not as if I’ve been forthcoming with what is going on in my life. But my patience runs dry.
“What happened with you and Caroline?”
He runs his hand through his hair still not answering me.
I grab his arm trying to get him to look at me, but he just pushes me away. Why is it so hard for him to talk about somebody he hates? Did something happen to make him change his mind?
“You changed your mind,” I say as I fall back into my chair.
“What?” His attention moves back to mine.
“You changed your mind. You want to be with her, not me.”
Landon grabs my neck and pulls me to him, kissing me hard on the lips. His kiss is desperate. It’s needy. It’s everything a kiss should be. I feel empty when his lips move away, left panting hard in their absence. The kiss was just as good as his last kiss. Nothing has changed there. I rub my fingers over my lip as it tingles from where his lips just were.
“Then what?”
He shakes his head. “I love you, Alex. Just after seeing Caroline, I’m frustrated. I’m frustrated that we will always have these attachments. These complications that we can never get rid of.”
“What do you mean?”
“I mean I will always have Caroline. You will always have Ethan.”
I shake my head angrily. “That’s not true! Ethan will not always be a part of my life, and as far as Caroline is concerned, I thought you went to Chicago to end it with her.”
“I did. Did you file for divorce while I was gone?”
I narrow my eyes at him trying to understand what’s happening. He knows I will file for divorce as soon as I can. As soon as it’s safe to do so.
“That’s what I thought,” he says when I don’t answer. He turns his attention back to the raindrops pelting down on our car.
“That’s not fair, though. You know I will file for divorce soon. I just need to talk with a lawyer and get it straightened out. It’s not as easy as you think ending something that used to be such a big part of your life.”
He turns back to me. “Exactly. Can you really ever end something that has been such a big part of your life for so long?”
I bite my lip trying to understand what Landon is talking about. I have no clue. Yes, moving on from Ethan and Caroline is going to be hard. But if we want to be together, isn’t it worth it?
I close my eyes trying to calm myself. The only thing left that I thought was mine for sure is slipping away, and I have no idea why. He’s hiding something from me. His words are far too cryptic. Something happened in Chicago. Something changed on that trip. I could talk to Drew. He might have an idea, but he could also just tip Landon off that I’m trying to find out what he’s hiding.
Or I could dig the flash drive out the trash. I could see what’s on