âAnd how is that young Roman?â asked Eutropius. âFaring well, I hope!â For it was Gordianus who saved his daughterâs life during our visit. If only for that, Eutropius does not judge all Romans harshly.
Ah, Gordianus! How I miss that youthâhis steadfastness, his courage, his cleverness. How I could use a companion with those qualities now, if I am to have any hope of escaping the parlous predicament in which I find myself. Instead I am alone, with no one to turn to.
And if anybody â¦
My voice trailed away. Bethesda clutched my arm. âThen what does it say?â
âThatâs it. There is no more.â
âBut there must be. That canât be the end of it.â
I nodded and sighed. âYouâre right. Something tells me this is just the beginning.â
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II
âThat final, incomplete sentenceâhow do you suppose it would end?â asked Berynus.
I was back at the eunuchsâ house after a long, busy day in the city. The hour was late, but my hosts often stayed up well past sunset, talking and dining by starlight and the soft glow of lamps on the roof terrace. With the sound of waves gently lapping the beach as backdrop, the setting could not have been more serene, even as my own state of mind could not have been more turbulent. In my distress, I had taken both of them into my confidence, explaining the circumstances of my parting with Antipater and reading the fragment aloud to them.
Holding the scrap of parchment in my hand, by the light of a nearby lamp I stared at the familiar handwriting. âWhat comes next? I suppose ⦠I suppose it would say: âIf anybody ⦠if anybody could help me, it would be ⦠Gordianus.ââ
âYouâre certain this was written by Antipater?â asked Kettel, giving me a quizzical look and lacing his pudgy fingers beneath his multiple chins.
âAbsolutely. The handwriting is unmistakable.â
âAnd thatâs all that arrived, that single scrap of parchment?â said Berynus, pursing his thin lips.
âYes. The fragment begins and ends in mid-sentence. Clearly, itâs been taken from some longer piece of writing.â
âFrom a letter, perhaps?â said Kettel.
âNot a letter addressed to me, obviously, since he refers to me in the third person. Not a letter at all, I suspect. And certainly not an official document of any sort, or something meant for publication; that would have been dictated to a scribe, while this is in his own hand. It seems to have been written more to himself than to someone else. Or written for posterity. Itâs as if Antipater wanted to record the events going on around him.â
âBut why?â asked Berynus.
âBecause he has a story to tell, but fears that he may not be around to tell it much longer. These words were written by a frightened man. A man who fears for his life.â I sighed and lowered the piece of parchment. âAnd here I am in Egypt, frittering away my time, unable to help him.â
âI thought you parted on bad terms with the old fellow,â said Kettel.
âWhat if I did? He still thinks of me fondly. He says so in this fragment. He wishes that I were with him.â
âHe doesnât actually say that .â This came from Bethesda, who sat on a rug before me, massaging my feet, which were sore from so much walking that day. My hosts had grown used to my slaveâs unruly manners and my tendency to indulge her, and hardly raised an eyebrow when she made bold to enter the conversation.
âHe doesnât say what?â I asked.
Bethesda raised an eyebrow and resumed massaging my feet. âHe doesnât say that he wishes you were with him, Master. What he actually says is that he could use someone with certain of your qualities. That is not exactly the same thing.â Like many who cannot read, Bethesda was a careful listener and had a sharp memory.
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