kissing, pressed up against the wall as I was. Matt was either Mr. Rogers nice, didnât find me attractive enough to kiss, or didnât have a romantic bone in his body.
Whatever the reason, it wasnât going to happen. And that meant he wasnât my type.
But he was a friend, the only thing that made chemistry bearable, and he had the goods on a fake ID connection. I didnât need him to be my type.
We hurried across the grass to the entrance of Cole. Matt fitted his key in the door and let us in. I followed him down the hall to his room. The halls had the musty, damp smell of weekends. There was a dark patch of something wet on the mottled blue carpet outside one of the rooms we passed and I wrinkled my nose. Down the hall, someoneâs stereo was throbbing bass. The frequency was low enough to rattle my chest even though it wasnât very loud.
He unlocked his room and I followed him into the dark.
âWhereâs your roommate?â I asked.
âDunno.â
âOh.â I sat on the missing roommateâs futon, watching Matt go through his arrival routine. He hung up his coat and tossed his keys on the dresser before powering up his computer. It was dim in the room, with only the desk lamp and one wall sconce on, but I could see that he and Chris had changed the room a bit since Iâd last been in there. The futon was a new addition, for example. And there were some posters on the wall. Above his bed, Matt had mounted a large black-and-white poster of a brunet pinup from the 1940s or â50s, I wasnât sure. The rest of the wall was a mishmash of photos, a German and an Irish flag, and a UW pennant.
âWhoâs that?â I pointed to the poster.
âRita Hayworth,â he said. âIâm digging an escape tunnel through the wall behind it.â
I grinned at him. âNice.â
He dropped into his desk chair and looked back at me.
âSo, who were you with tonight?â he asked.
âJessie, Geena, um â¦Â Kerry and Megan.â
âI know Jessie,â he said, for no apparent reason. I didnât answer.
Matt logged into his email account and scrolled through the messages. âHere it is,â he murmured. âWhatâs your address?â
I gave it to him and he forwarded the message to me. âThanks.â
âLet me know when you get one. We can go out.â
âCool.â I stood up.
âAre you okay?â he asked.
âYeah.â I nodded. âI think so.â I swallowed hard and tried a smile. âProbably drunk.â
âYou must be building up a tolerance.â He turned to the small refrigerator and pulled out an open bottle of blue Powerade. âWant some?â
âI donât drink anything blue,â I said.
He laughed. âWhy not?â
âI make it a rule not to drink anything thatâs an unnatural color.â
âBlue is natural, the sky is blue,â he said.
âYou canât drink the sky.â
He laughed again. âThatâs a weird rule.â
I shrugged. âIt just freaks me out.â
âYouâre a weird girl, Jocelyn.â
âI just donât like blue drinks or food.â
He took a long drink. âWhat about blueberries?â
âTheyâre not blue inside.â
âSo â¦Â do you peel them?â
âOkay fine, I donât eat electric blue food.â
He laughed again, but let the subject drop. âBy the way, thanks for ditching me in lab this week. Must have been a hell of a weekend with The Boyfriend.â Iâd still been wallowing when chem lab came around and skipped.
Apparently, my supply of tears was not out yet. I turned away when my eyes welled up, but I guess I wasnât fast enough.
âWhoa, whatâd I say?â Matt asked, standing.
âNo, itâs nothing. Iâm sorry.â I blinked hard.
âAre you sure?â
I took a few deep breaths, trying to